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I just thought I would put a few words in before some of you will never read my journal again...
I never make my journals private because it is how I feel...It is my opinion. And frankly, I see myself as a really easygoing person. Yes it has been hard for me to accept a few things but you know...I come around. I deal with things...try to make them better. I hate drama. I am not stupid...I know people read my journals...and I dont have a problem with it. You read it...see what you dont want to see...then maybe you shouldnt go out of the way to do so anymore. Thats your choice.
I love the family. I have nothing against anyone. Truthfully....nothing. Although we were raised differently and have been through different situations...I understand things may be different. I have alot...I mean ALOT of respect for my dad. Dad has been through alot...we all have. I want nothing more than for dad to be happy. Dad is my hero. Same for all of you. I want you all to be happy. I thank dad for EVERYTHING he gives me. I find myself so lucky to have someone like dad in my life. He has very often been the only one there for me at times. He has done SO MUCH for all of us. We have all done things for each other though...dont get me wrong.
I am truely sorry that my words offend people...I really am. I guess I should just act as though everything is so grand and perfect. Although life isnt perfect.
I just get sad that no one asks me what is the situation or problem...or why i feel the way I do. But you know...I understand. I manage.
I do not HATE any of you. I care about you all. I guess sometimes I wish things could go a little differently...but hey...doesnt everyone.
Sometimes I wish I could say everything I felt...but I cant. And i never do because I dont really WANT to offend anyone...although I have...and I am very ssorry.
I do care about all of you...I dont intend to make you upset...I just wish you would listen and give me a chance. I wish someone would be open to understanding.
I cant tell you how bad I feel...I am bawling as I am typing this and my eyes swollen to the size of golfballs with a splitting headache.
I know some of you probably think I am a bad person...its all perspective I guess.
I guess no one will ever give me the chance...or even try to understand.
Its reality.
I cant beat myself up over it anymore.
So long...and goodnight
I never make my journals private because it is how I feel...It is my opinion. And frankly, I see myself as a really easygoing person. Yes it has been hard for me to accept a few things but you know...I come around. I deal with things...try to make them better. I hate drama. I am not stupid...I know people read my journals...and I dont have a problem with it. You read it...see what you dont want to see...then maybe you shouldnt go out of the way to do so anymore. Thats your choice.
I love the family. I have nothing against anyone. Truthfully....nothing. Although we were raised differently and have been through different situations...I understand things may be different. I have alot...I mean ALOT of respect for my dad. Dad has been through alot...we all have. I want nothing more than for dad to be happy. Dad is my hero. Same for all of you. I want you all to be happy. I thank dad for EVERYTHING he gives me. I find myself so lucky to have someone like dad in my life. He has very often been the only one there for me at times. He has done SO MUCH for all of us. We have all done things for each other though...dont get me wrong.
I am truely sorry that my words offend people...I really am. I guess I should just act as though everything is so grand and perfect. Although life isnt perfect.
I just get sad that no one asks me what is the situation or problem...or why i feel the way I do. But you know...I understand. I manage.
I do not HATE any of you. I care about you all. I guess sometimes I wish things could go a little differently...but hey...doesnt everyone.
Sometimes I wish I could say everything I felt...but I cant. And i never do because I dont really WANT to offend anyone...although I have...and I am very ssorry.
I do care about all of you...I dont intend to make you upset...I just wish you would listen and give me a chance. I wish someone would be open to understanding.
I cant tell you how bad I feel...I am bawling as I am typing this and my eyes swollen to the size of golfballs with a splitting headache.
I know some of you probably think I am a bad person...its all perspective I guess.
I guess no one will ever give me the chance...or even try to understand.
Its reality.
I cant beat myself up over it anymore.
So long...and goodnight