Waiting is.

Apr 15, 2008 07:34

Well...it's been a while. What's new with me? I'm moved out of my parent's house back in early January and into the Fortress with Derek. So far, it has quite a fun experience. I quit my job at the answering service because the management there couldn't find their way out of a wet paper bag filled with heavy stones. After three months of searching for new place of employ, I landed a job at Condom Nation..the 24 hour porn store on McKnight. Ha! That's been a trip thus far. It's not a bad job, but I'm going to get out of there as soon as possible. Management seems to be lacking initative and I'm fed up with working under poor managers. Also, no health benefits unless for minions like myself. I do however get a discount on any product in the store and I can up to three DVDs at a time, so look forward to an invite to Porn Night at The Fortress.

Presently, I am single and enjoying it very much so. The dating scene nowadays is frightening. I read somewhere that Pittsburgh is in the top 50 of cities with an optimal dating scene. Add that to the fact that Pennsylvania is second only to Florida with the most population over 40 and what you get is bad odds of finding a single person within my desired age range. Perhaps though, that's a little harsh of me. However, I sincerely doubt that I'll start going clubbing anytime soon. It's not a lifestyle that's ever enticed me, nor will it ever I doubt. Currently my ideal relationship is one in which there is actually little commitment. Each of us are there for the other's needs, of course, but other those are met, each person goes back to their own life.

Some might think this cruel or unhealthy, but it's healthiest possibility for one that is not ready for marriage or settling down. My most recent relationship, and especially the aftermath of it's end, has broken me free from teachings ingrained in me from childhood. That being, one must find a mate as quickly as possible and populate. I was taught that a relationship should only evolve into marriage; there is only one reason and one path that dating must follow. This is wrong thinking. An individual can date simply to date. A relationship can end as easily as it can evolve into marriage. Hell, with half of all marriages ending in divorce nowadays, what's the harm in waiting..to validate your choice..to ensure that you aren't hastily acting. I would much rather find someone who will be willing to put up with my shit for a long time, because if I am to ever take such a step, I intend for it to last a long time.

Hopefully, it is currently best for me to live from meal to meal and not sit down at a feast. I'm not sure that I will truly find one that will be able to endure me. Sure, I'm a great guy and all, but at the end of the day...I'm still a guy. I'd joke and say that I could always go gay, but I feel like I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body, so that would never work. Heh!

Waiting is.
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