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you have the power to protect yourself. i let people in that just mess with my mind and hurt me and part of me blames it on me being naive and wanting to believe the best in people. but at the same time i have to wonder if i like being hurt. is it a habit that i can't break? if a nice guy walked into my life right now i know i would just push him away. why do i only want someone who will end up hurting me in the end, just like all the times before?
this weekend was decent. minus the out of town visitor. there were a bunch of parents here and after the football game they all came over and taught us how to play butt darts. you put a quarted between your butt cheeks, waddle over to the shot glass and try to release it into it. if you miss you drink. if you make it everyone else drinks.
i was really sick sunday. i need to surround myself with more positive people because usually something shitty happens to piss me off and i end up getting beligerant. i'm taking a break for awhile. a month or so. i'm going to focus on my new job. i have my first shift tonight. i am in some serious debt so i'm going to put my boozing money towards getting out of it. and i want to focus on my working out.
i'm feeling really blue today and i can't decide if it's the shitty weather or my mind reeling from the weekend. i just feel like crap.
i talked to my mom last night and i smell a wedding in the making. and it's not with the shithead. it's with the one guy that she's friends with that i really like. but he has some woman in thailand who is coming over to visit. weird. but my mom is crazy, sexy, and so much fun so this other woman can't even compare. and did i mention she's from thailand?
this weekend was decent. minus the out of town visitor. there were a bunch of parents here and after the football game they all came over and taught us how to play butt darts. you put a quarted between your butt cheeks, waddle over to the shot glass and try to release it into it. if you miss you drink. if you make it everyone else drinks.
i was really sick sunday. i need to surround myself with more positive people because usually something shitty happens to piss me off and i end up getting beligerant. i'm taking a break for awhile. a month or so. i'm going to focus on my new job. i have my first shift tonight. i am in some serious debt so i'm going to put my boozing money towards getting out of it. and i want to focus on my working out.
i'm feeling really blue today and i can't decide if it's the shitty weather or my mind reeling from the weekend. i just feel like crap.
i talked to my mom last night and i smell a wedding in the making. and it's not with the shithead. it's with the one guy that she's friends with that i really like. but he has some woman in thailand who is coming over to visit. weird. but my mom is crazy, sexy, and so much fun so this other woman can't even compare. and did i mention she's from thailand?