Before, During, and After

Apr 14, 2005 17:55

Before love, people always ask can I.. Can i make it. Can I be what i want to be. Can I acheive my goals. Can I find someone to spend my life with.

During love, people ask when will we.. When will we have children. When will we get married. When will we take that trip. When will we finally get a new car. When will we get to spend more time together.

After love, people ask why didnt I.. Why didnt i show her more love. Why didnt I pay more attention. Why didnt i try harder. Why didnt i fight for what I had. Why didnt I make sure I was ready.

Before love, people doubt themselves.. Why am i not with somebody. Why am I not loved. What is it I am missing.

During love, people doubt the reality of the situation.. How can this be real. How can i be so happy. What wonderful thing did i do to deserve her. When am i going to wake up from this dream.

After love, people doubt their decisions.. Why did I do that. What was my reason for ignoring her needs. What else could I have done. How did I mess that up.

Before love, people must learn to love themselves.. Why do I do these things. What should i do to make myself better. How can I make myself do the right thing. Why would i think i am ugly. Should I lose weight or am I fine the way i am.

During love, people must learn to love another.. Why does she push my buttons. How can i let her get to me so easily. Why is it i can look into her eyes for hours. What is it about her that i cant seem to get off of my mind.

After love, people must learn to forgive.. How many times must I say I am sorry. What could I have done differently. When did it all go sour. Can I ever be as good without her, as I was with her. Should I apologize first, or let her call.

But no matter what, throughout life you will have questions.. and there are some questions that cant be answered. There are some answers that come easily, and other that are hard to come by. But never stop searching, whether you are searching for love as I am, or just for something easy like the meaning of life. Never give up, or give up hope, cuz until you find those answers, you will never be fulfilled. I know I refuse to live my life unfulfilled, to live an empty life. I dont know if its the goals or the journeys that give my life meaning, but I will travel both the high and low roads until I find my answers. How about you?
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