this house is vaccant and cold.
wednesday my bubby passed away.
my birthday was 2 days after.
and her burial was 2 days after that.
i had a hard time getting to nj for the funeral. i almost didnt go. im glad i did i would have regretted it for the rest of my life. i got to see my cousins on my birthday. which i havent done since i was 13. its pretty sad that a funeral in the family is what had to happen for me to wake up and want to reach out to my family. and i now know what my grandparents were saying and im going to try my hardest to do what they have wanted me to do for a VERY long time.
im glad to have seen my first cousins. some elder cousins. and some younger cousins for the first time.
i feel so bad for uncle bernie. and celia is a nut, in a good way. and i had forgotten how awesome aunt audrie is. i wish i had spent more time in new england by my family through out my life.
im going to bring amy to the shiva house tomorrow. im not sure if this is the right time to bring her into the family. but i do want her to meet my grandfather. and uncle and aunt.
o yea! and i shoveled snow for the first time in my life!
im still in a mourning state of mind...
my birthday was 2 days after.
and her burial was 2 days after that.
i had a hard time getting to nj for the funeral. i almost didnt go. im glad i did i would have regretted it for the rest of my life. i got to see my cousins on my birthday. which i havent done since i was 13. its pretty sad that a funeral in the family is what had to happen for me to wake up and want to reach out to my family. and i now know what my grandparents were saying and im going to try my hardest to do what they have wanted me to do for a VERY long time.
im glad to have seen my first cousins. some elder cousins. and some younger cousins for the first time.
i feel so bad for uncle bernie. and celia is a nut, in a good way. and i had forgotten how awesome aunt audrie is. i wish i had spent more time in new england by my family through out my life.
im going to bring amy to the shiva house tomorrow. im not sure if this is the right time to bring her into the family. but i do want her to meet my grandfather. and uncle and aunt.
o yea! and i shoveled snow for the first time in my life!
im still in a mourning state of mind...