"music's the reason why i know time still exists"
i can't believe tomorrow is august already. i've never felt so bittersweet about a summer in my whole life. sure, it comes and goes too quickly, but this one feels like it just started.
carousel has, as i knew it would be, been an amazing experience that i will truly never forget. the hundreds of hours of rehearsals and the countless performances seem like nothing compared to the family that this cast and crew has become. i feel so comfortable around these people. i knew it would happen, but this being the first onstage-less summer made me a little skeptical at first. now, the thought of leaving this people is completely unreal. im living with them. we know each other. we have shared this entire summer, but come sunday, i will barely see any of them. some i may never see again. but that's the way life goes, especially a life in the theatre. it's just so surreal when it approaches
the show itself has been great! i have a modest role but i am working hard in it. i also worked hard as an understudy for one of the principles and almost had to go on the other night! the girl passed out from the heat and i got backstage to go on for her, but right before her entrance, she came backstage and went on. false alarm. rather scary but very exciting too! the following night, the power went out in manasquan from the thunderstorm. we gathered outside and did our make-up and hair in the heat and sunlight. the power was expected to come on before the show, but of course it didn't and we had to cancel the performance. 5 more shows this week and then it's over!! i'll be back home, working at market basket once again, trying to have a normal summer..
as for life on the homefront, it's been a pretty rough summer, despite the fact i'm almost never home. things are falling apart for various reasons, but it's only made me treasure my close friends even more.
this summer has helped me determine who my true friends are. i have learned to be okay with drifting from some people. people grow apart - it's a fact of life. there are reasons people come into your life, but not everyone is meant to stay. and i finally understand that that is ok. i don't bother forcing myself to fight for a relationship that has faded. i remove myself from negative situations and focus on positive ones. that is definitely a big change for me.
maybe this revelation isn't anything truly enlightening, it seems obvious, but coming to the realization has changed my life. it could be from growing in different ways from different circumstances, or it could be from a new friend i have become very close to. he is always positive and helps me put things in perspective. he doesn't mind when i share every detail of my day or when i complain about the little things. he makes me laugh when im bored, when im angry, and when im sad. we've been talking since the end of school but i can tell that his presence in my life has been nothing but good for me and im so grateful for that.
anyway..exciting things from this summer: i was privledged enough to attend the hairpsray movie premiere at njpac. i got to see queen latifia, zac efron, amanda bynes, nikki blonsky, and elijah kelly walk to red carpet and then i sat in the 3rd row for the movie. it was such an amazing day! one week later i was at the john mayer & ben folds concert with my friend julie from the show! we met up with deanna & lisa for a short time (no room! boo) and then met with julie's friends. it was a nice concert! umm i think that's it.
finally read harry potter 5 (haha im so behind) so im gonna go see that movie tonight. hopefully next semester i'll have time to read 6 and 7! don't tell me anything!!!!!!!
hmmm.....i guess i will wrap this up. just felt like writing a few things down. i miss everyone at onstage!!! wish i was doing 42nd street, but i'll be around soon enough! much love to everyone i havent seen and talked to much this summer!!
xoxo stef*
carousel has, as i knew it would be, been an amazing experience that i will truly never forget. the hundreds of hours of rehearsals and the countless performances seem like nothing compared to the family that this cast and crew has become. i feel so comfortable around these people. i knew it would happen, but this being the first onstage-less summer made me a little skeptical at first. now, the thought of leaving this people is completely unreal. im living with them. we know each other. we have shared this entire summer, but come sunday, i will barely see any of them. some i may never see again. but that's the way life goes, especially a life in the theatre. it's just so surreal when it approaches
the show itself has been great! i have a modest role but i am working hard in it. i also worked hard as an understudy for one of the principles and almost had to go on the other night! the girl passed out from the heat and i got backstage to go on for her, but right before her entrance, she came backstage and went on. false alarm. rather scary but very exciting too! the following night, the power went out in manasquan from the thunderstorm. we gathered outside and did our make-up and hair in the heat and sunlight. the power was expected to come on before the show, but of course it didn't and we had to cancel the performance. 5 more shows this week and then it's over!! i'll be back home, working at market basket once again, trying to have a normal summer..
as for life on the homefront, it's been a pretty rough summer, despite the fact i'm almost never home. things are falling apart for various reasons, but it's only made me treasure my close friends even more.
this summer has helped me determine who my true friends are. i have learned to be okay with drifting from some people. people grow apart - it's a fact of life. there are reasons people come into your life, but not everyone is meant to stay. and i finally understand that that is ok. i don't bother forcing myself to fight for a relationship that has faded. i remove myself from negative situations and focus on positive ones. that is definitely a big change for me.
maybe this revelation isn't anything truly enlightening, it seems obvious, but coming to the realization has changed my life. it could be from growing in different ways from different circumstances, or it could be from a new friend i have become very close to. he is always positive and helps me put things in perspective. he doesn't mind when i share every detail of my day or when i complain about the little things. he makes me laugh when im bored, when im angry, and when im sad. we've been talking since the end of school but i can tell that his presence in my life has been nothing but good for me and im so grateful for that.
anyway..exciting things from this summer: i was privledged enough to attend the hairpsray movie premiere at njpac. i got to see queen latifia, zac efron, amanda bynes, nikki blonsky, and elijah kelly walk to red carpet and then i sat in the 3rd row for the movie. it was such an amazing day! one week later i was at the john mayer & ben folds concert with my friend julie from the show! we met up with deanna & lisa for a short time (no room! boo) and then met with julie's friends. it was a nice concert! umm i think that's it.
finally read harry potter 5 (haha im so behind) so im gonna go see that movie tonight. hopefully next semester i'll have time to read 6 and 7! don't tell me anything!!!!!!!
hmmm.....i guess i will wrap this up. just felt like writing a few things down. i miss everyone at onstage!!! wish i was doing 42nd street, but i'll be around soon enough! much love to everyone i havent seen and talked to much this summer!!
xoxo stef*