Jul 09, 2010 16:11
As you may have figured out by now, my rants about Twilight had more to do with the dumb fangirls screaming over guys looks rather than the bad plot or writing. Maybe it was a little bit of jealousy that women scream over guys because they look sexy or hot, even if I'd never date anyone that stupid. Like "Why don't women scream at me?" I wonder WHY some women scream their brains out over sexy men and sexy boy bands and sexy anything, like the instant some woman sees a "OMGHAWT" guy they scream at the top of their lungs annoyingly and I want to punch them.
My point was to say that yes, women do not like it when guys drool at women only because of their looks. If you're a woman with a nice body and say, big boobs, you hate it when men harass you because of your looks. And if you're overweight, you hate it that men only seem to like thin women.
But it goes both ways. Women in general seem to like guys with toned bodies, or good looks. My point was that humans in general can be superficial and objectify someone based on looks, whether it's men or women, and whatever "men have been doing it for centuries so women should be able to do it ect..." doesn't exactly make it RIGHT.
This makes what I've been wanting to confess and rant and cry about harder to post. I've been wanting to confess a weakness of mine for a while but haven't because I've been AFRAID of offending people on my Flist, people I respect and like as friends. But as someone said, this is MY blog, and I can rant and rave and share my darkest secrets if I wish. Well then world, this is it.
I am superficial as well. I find some women attractive and not others by the look of their bodies. And I hate myself because of it.
But like I said, humans in general seem to have this problem.
It's like I have two sides of me. The practical side of me is attracted to people by their personality, people I enjoy being around or feel a friendship with. And then there's the sexual side, that's attracted to people based more on looks, the shape of the body, the legs, the hair, the butt, ect ect. And I hate myself because I KNOW that it's not right to think someone's attractive based on looks, because dammit, I feel unattractive myself and I know how it feels. But I don't feel like it's something I can change easily.
And before you rant about how I'm just "another guy" who's like all men, I do often have strange tastes in women and find women attractive that others may pass over. I love dorky women, and love glasses of all kinds. I find I like certain hair types over others. I don't like big breasts and prefer small to average sized chests. A butt that some guys would think hot I would say "meh". So I may not be perfect but who knows, there are ladies out there I'd find cute that others wouldn't. PLUS, unlike most men, I treat women like humans and don't hump their legs or cat call or treat them like sex objects, even if mentally I look at some woman and think "God I want to dive her muff!!!"
You want to hear more irony and fail?
I'm a pussy man. I'm obsessed with pussy and love the look of it, but I'm a bit picky about that as well. I mean, I've seen some girls with a huge amount of roast beef, like 3-4 inches dangling, and that creeps me out a bit. And it's funny because it's not like the first thing I'm going to see of a woman is her flaps, I'm not going to see that until I get her naked. So it's not like I could pick a woman based on that, and wouldn't that make me a dick if I did so?
I dunno. I guess I'm just imperfect and fail at life. Here's a guy who's so insecure about his looks he rants about Jacob's shirtless ass, yet can be superficial himself. It's like the ultimate WTF. So I confessed. I got this shit off my chest. I don't think I feel better now, though. And I may have offended people here on LJ. Sorry. I still think of you guys as my friends. I think friendship is more important than whether or not I find you fuckable, though. Friendship goes beyond appearance.
Mr. Imperfect and Flawed signing off.
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