Purpose

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a lengthy discussion about spirituality has left me feeling more than ever like i have none.

well thats not true i do. i know i do. i know that we are here somehow and i know that we are all part of the same whole and i know that this realm is only one among many and i know that the earth gives us life and that our minds are the link to what else is out there and that we are capable of so much more but what does that all mean?

knowing that i know these things should be enough but its not.

we are all connected so why do i sometimes feel so alone? where is my feeling of contentment knowing that i am just one part of a much greater whole?

i have belief but i do not know if i have faith.

i want to be filled with a joy knowing that my journey is not limited to the here and now. i want to be rid of the fear i feel about the finite nature of this lifes existence.

i understand the cycle of life must be because it has always been and always will be but sometimes i wish that i found more comfort in that knowledge.

my life is filled with a hole that i need to find the filling for.

i know i need to find it within so why do i keep searching for it everywhere else?