MY GIRL FRIDAY Chapter 10
MY GIRL FRIDAY
Chapter 10: LAY OUT ALL THE CARDS
Rating: PG-13
Main Characters: Members of BIG BANG/ Marianne Chanel a.k.a M-Cee/ Jojie a.k.a Mr. J/ Seo Hyun
Pairing: YOUNG BAE and M-CEE? Or JI YONG and M-CEE?
Disclaimer: All characters are fictional EXCEPT BIG BANG and its members. I don't own BIG BANG. BIG BANG is under YG Entertainment.
KWON JI YONG
I didn't know that I have masochistic tendencies. For anysane person would have turned their back and left immediately after seeing what I saw earlier - but not me. Rationality ain't in my vocabulary these days. Well, at least not where Chanel is concerned anyway.
So here I am, rooted - my whole body suffused with so much anger and pain that I shook with it. In my mind is the indelible image of Young Bae and Chanel. FU@K! Yes! It did seem like they were almost fu@king each other with the way Chanel's legs were wrapped around Young Bae's...aaaahhhh! Just the thought of i sent another jolt of rage through me. Yet for the life of me, I could not find it in myself - no - in my heart to hate Chanel.
My feelings for her overpowers any other emotions that I have, overrides any rational thought in my head.
Chanel. Chanel who staggered back and winced when I shouted at them. I quickly berated myself for doing that. The shout was not meant for her and I knew that she must be emotionally drained right now but I wasn't able to control myself. I almost lost it after seeing her and Young Bae in that stupid bike.
Young Bae. The bastard must thank his lucky stars today because I still value a decade's worth of friendship and that I don't want to make a scene in front of Chanel right now...damn it! I want to smack his face badly! I am gonna deal with him later, but for now,all I want to do is snatch Chanel away from his hand so we could get away from here.
I was just about to step forward when I heard the private elevator that was just a few steps away from me opened. After a couple of seconds, someone said,
" What the hell happened to you Marianne Chanel Navarro? "
MARIANNE CHANEL
Geezus! I really have a knack for getting myself in awkward situations,huh. Now, the question is - how do I get myself out of the mess I am in at the moment?
I have yet to recover from that roller-coaster hot ride with Young Bae and now I have to face Ji Yong - all hate and pain visible on his face. It will forever be on my mind - that accusing look that Ji Yong gave me. Haunt me forever is more like it. God! I'm such an as$!
I was much too deep in my own thoughts when I heard,
" What the hell happened to you Marianne Chanel Navarro? " My head snapped up at the same time that the two guys craned their necks to where the voice came from.
And there just outside the elevator, standing with a hand on his hips is my cousin,Jojie. His tone suggested that I have a LOT of explaining to do and that it better be good or else....
Any other day, I would have been irritated by his tone but not this time. What a perfect time for my cousin to make an appearance. I broke free from Young Bae's grip, took off my slingbacks and ran towards my cousin. I stopped when I was almost beside him and said,
" Can I go home now, please Jojie? Please? " I'm certain that he will let me.
But I assumed wrong.
" NO. " he said with a resounding finality. " Not until I have talked to you three first. " He looked at me and with a cocked eyebrow whispered,
" And I thought it's only Ji Yong! Obviously, it's not. Apparently, things have been happening right under my nose. Like the one in the parking lot earlier after shoot. I heard there were people in the said parking lot who witnessed the almost altercation. " I groaned but at the same time I felt a growing sense of indignation. As if I asked for these things to happen! I am almost a hundred percent sure that it was Seo Hyun who ratted me out for I know that the boys will never do that and that it never stuck me that Hyoo Rin will do such thing,too. MY slight occasional irritation towards Seo Hyun is fast becoming a permanent aversion.
" And can you please tell me why is skirt like that!?! "I huffed and then raised my head defiantly and said,
" Screw the skirt Jojie. You want to talk...then let's get this over and done with. "
I know that it's unfair to Jojie and rude of me to snap at him like that but I was expecting him to let me off the hook even for just tonight. Considering all the sh!t that I went through today but no, he just have to push it tonight. I clenched my teeth and said,
" I'll wait at the conference room. I'll take the elevator - alone. "
I slipped my slingbacks on and then walked towards the elevator letting the heels clicked on the floor loudly as I vent out on my poor Louboutins.
I leaned on the wall once inside the lift. But I could barely support myself so I slid down the cold floor. Goddamit! Why does these have to happen to me...all at once!! Did I piss off some greater power out there and that this is the cosmos way of giving me the finger?
Well...fu@k you,too!
I ran my hands though my hair and took my time standing up. I looked down on the ripped part of the skirt...
" Oh well, could have been worst. At least I still have my legs and and feet. " I said out loud and chuckled as I remembered how my legs almost an SUV. I still can't believe that I allowed myself to such a stupid idea. Hah! " Admit it...you enjoyed that ride..." said the demon in my head. My brain did a flashback of how Young Bae's...poked - damn! Just the thought of it is making me hot.
I exhaled sharply and smoothed my ahir as the elevator opened to the 15th floor where the conference room and recording studio is. Made my way to the conference room and as I opened the door, Seo Hyun's face greeted me. She was on her way out but stopped on her tracks and gaped at me. SHe surveyed me and actually had the audacity to linger her gaze on my skirt.
" What happened to you? " She was lip-pointing at my skirt. The b!tch did not even hide the malicious smile on her face.
" THAT.IS.NONE.OF.YOUR. DAMN.BUSINESS. To put it more succinctly, my life and whatever happens in it is none of your damn business. So if I were you, you better shut the hell up or I will stitch up that potty mouth of yours. " Seo Hyun avoided my eyes, looking guilty as hell. Damn b!tch ratted me out after all. Gahd! I could wring her pretty neck for it!
" Mr. J and I are going to talk, so scram! " I could no longer rein in my emotions. Such a pity that she's on the receiving end...well, not really. She had it coming. Besides, it's better that she knows that I don't want her snooping around where she should not be.
I slumped onto the swivel chair and leaned back. Slipping my feet off the slingbacks and massaged my temples. I was in the middle of this when the door that leads to the recording room across me opened and revealed TOP, Seungri, and Daesung followed by Cash and Paul.
" Hey girl! "
" What's up M-Cee! "
" Noona! "
But just like always, it was TOP who delivered the punchline.
" Yo M-Cee! You look like...." he paused first with his finger on his forehead as if and his expression is that of a fake contemplation.
"sh!t...you look like sh!t. But a hot sh!t at that. " And then he burst out laughing. We all did actually. All of them took a seat as I sat up straight and turned my face to TOP who took the seat beside me.
" Well, thanks for the backhanded compliment. You are really good for my ego. " I winked at him.
" Anytime baby girl, anytime. " He pinched both my cheeks and then patted my shoulder as he looks at me under his eyes. And I realized that TOP knows. He knew that I look like hell because something must have happened and that when he said " anytime ", it meant deeper than just the occasional cracking of jokes from him.
I nodded at him, suddenly feel like tearing up. I am touched by this gesture of his and I squeezed his hand that was still on my shoulder and smiled gratefull at him.
" Hey noona! You haven't eaten,right? " I looked at Seungri, "Cash is treating out tonight which is like a once in a lifetime thing so you should take advantage of it. " Everyone chuckled and then Cash spoke,
" Yeah. Come and join us, dear. God knows I am outnumbered by these idiots and you know what that means...." I smiled at her and replied,
" True. We are indeed outnumbered " the boys guffawed at this, " but as much as I want to - " I was interrupted by the opening of the door. My cousin, Young Bae and Ji Yong entered the room. Everybody were suddenly silent.
" People, sorry to interrupt this happy gathering but I need you all to leave now. I am going to use this room for an indefinite length of time so you can take your time having dinner. I am going to message you guys once I am done here. "
" Oh...so does that mean M-Cee can "
" The answer is no Seungri. " My cousin answered Seungri's unfinished query. Everyone around the table looked around and then stood up except for me of course. It seemed like Daesung and Seungri wanted to ask more but Jojie gave them the
* shut up * look so they just nodded and patted Young Baeand Ji Yong's shoulders as they passed by them at the door.
It was TOP who stood up last. He squeezed my shoulder first and then whispered,
" Anytime, Chanel. If you need someone to vent out to or a punching bag, ok? Remember that. " He was smiling mischievously as he said this but still, I choked up. So I just stupidly nodded at him. He got up then but stopped in front of Jojie,
" She's not my type Mr. J, so you can stop giving me the dagger looks,ok? And please...give her a break. Blame these two - not her, ok? "
Ji Yong and Young Bae ssunshineed and I cracked out laughing. I gave TOP the thumbs up sign as he winked at me and then left the room.
Immediately after the door closed, my cousin took the seat at the head of the table. Young Bae and Ji Yong on the other hand both grabbed the seat beside me. Crap! We haven't even started yet here comes the inevitable awkwardness.
" Hey...." I stood up as both Jojie and I spoke up. I pushed back my seat and tried to wrench the swivel chair from them. No such luck. Both men are sizing up each other; as if they are seeing each other for the first time. Ji Yong's a bit taller than Young Bae but the latter is a gym buff so when Ji Yong tried to pull the chair, it did not even budge from Young Bae's grip. Damn!
Exasperated and tensed, I went back to my seat and said,
" Fine! If you guys want to fight over something so pathetic such as a chair, then so be it! Take your precious time, at least it would take the spotlight off me. God knows I did not sign up for this when I decided to take Jojie's offer to come and work here! "
I ran my hands through my hair as I leaned back on the chair. I closed my eyes; instantly regretting what I said. It was insensitive but I really can't put up with them anymore.
I heard my cousin speak up finally, his voice booming and commands authority.
" Cut the theatrics and get a hold of yourselves you two! We are here to talk, Young Bae...Ji Yong. You can kick each other's as$ later to your heart's content but for now, I want you to get away from my cousin and took your seats opposite hers!
NOW! "
I waited anxiously for any sound that would indicate that both of them followed Jojie's orders, but seconds passed by first before the sound of metal hitting the wall startled me.
" What the fuc@k- " I snapped my eyes open and saw Young Bae already making his way to the seat across me. I turned to Ji Yong, question in my eyes but he just snorted, his smile mocking. I glared at him but he just shrugged and then he took the seat beside me. It's like he never heard Jojie's orders.
Oh geez! I am going to have white hair in life thanks to these two!
" Ji Yong, I told you to - "
" Let's talk now Mr. J, surely seating arrangements are of no importance,right? " Ji Yong cutting off my cousin as he leaned back n his chair and rudely stretched his legs and placed both of his feet on top of the table.
I gaped at Ji Yong. Baffled and surprised at this exhibition of rudeness coming from him.
" Ji Yong...please. " but he just flicked his eyes nonchalantly at me and said,
" Sit, Chanel so we can start this damn meeting now! "
I was taken aback by the sound of his voice. It was cold and distant; gone is the happy camper tone that I have gotten used to.
I absentmindedly took my seat, still gaping at Ji Yong who turned his face away from me. I was offended by what he did. Hurt even. Why is he acting this way? Oh God! Have I hurt him that much thus the drastic change in his attitude?
I dropped myself on the chair and crossed my arms on chest; my gaze fell on Young Bae's whose expression I can't read. Only to turn away because for Pete's sake, I could not take the intensity of his gaze on me. For a fleeting moment, it felt as if we were the only ones in the room.
Geezus!
" Ok, now that everyone is seated, we an finally get down to business. I am going to make this as quickly as possible. " Jojie scanned the room as he spoke. But the two boys weren't looking at him. Ji Yong is staring at the ceiling while Young Bae - well, I have no idea because I don't even want to dare look at him.
" I know it's obvious but I am going to ask anyway. " Jojie looked pointedly at Young Bae and Ji Yong. " Do you guys have feelings for my cousin? Are you serious about it? "
I cringed as I listened to my cousin. Ain't this the most embarrassing thing ever?!? This is like having sex talk with your parents! UGH! I put both elbows on the table and covered my face with my hands as I waited for the boy's answers.
" She is mine. "
" I am going to make her mine..."
The guys spoke simultaneously. I took my hands off my face and found myself locked in a gaze with Young Bae.
" She's mine..." His words echoed in my head. His eyes were soft yet serious as he said those words but it was the way he said it that knocked the breath out of me. It was possessive and unrelenting. Here I go again...am I going to fall for his words,again?
" You are mine, Chanel. " He declared again, his eyes scorching as it bored right through me that I shivered. I was lost, again in his gaze. My thoughts are blurred and fuzzy except for those three words that were clear as a crystal in my head.
" HUH? Really? Last I heard, Chanel wanted me to be the one to hold and never let fer go forever. " Ji Yong's venomous and mocking voice cut through me dazed state.
I gasped. I froze, paralyzed suddenly by disbelief and the anger slowly building up inside of me. I felt the blood drain from my face as I bit my lip to fight off the urge to look at Ji Yong and slap him in the face. I tasted blood on my lips.
How could he? That was supposed to be just between the two of us? How could he betray my trust?
I bent my head down just in time as a tear slid down my cheek. Oh God Ji Yong! I must have really hurt you that much for you to spite me this way. I felt a stab of pain perforate my soul; I could not blink back the tears anymore. Where has the always-carefree-and-playful- Ji Yong that I like gone? I want him back! Gone is the anger that I was feeling just a while ago; replaced now by the sudden need to wrap my arms around him and beg for his forgiveness, Every single cell in my body ached to reach out to him and take away the pan that I have caused.
And it was then that I made up my mind. There really is no other way. If I want to end this mess - this entagled web that we have gotten ourselves into.
The sudden scraping noise filled the room as I roughly pushed my seat back and stood up.
" ENOUGH! " I slammed my hands on the table. " You " - I pointed at Young Bae - " I am not yours nor do I belong to anyone so stop deluding yourself,ok? " I flinched as I said the mordant words. I reminded myself that I have to hurt them for the last time to avoid causing them even more pain and sorrow if I don't put a stop to this now.
I ignored the pained look on Young Bae's face but still felt the pain that tore at the very core of my soul and quickly turned to Ji Yong who was not looking at me; seemingly unperturbed by my sudden outburst.
I had to move and turn the chair that he was sitting on so I could look and talk to him properly.He grudgingly took his feet off the table and looked up at me.
I staggered back and winced at the same time upon seeing the dead expression on Ji Yong's face.
That had me undone.
I felt the hot tears as it flowed freely on my face as I dropped on my knees and put his hands in mine. I could barely see his face from the tears that obscures my view and whispered...
" I am so sorry Ji Yong. I really am for causing you so much pain. But please, stop this. This ass of a person that you are trying so hard to make yourself of. I want my BOSS back. I want him back. Please..." I choked as I begged. My shoulders shook as I sobbed even harder. Ji Yong made a move to embrace me but I swiftly stood up away from him.
" No! This has to stop! " my voice sounded frantic and crazed even to my own ears, " Whatever it is that we have gotten ourselves into! "
" NO! You stop right there, Chanel! "
" You can't tell me what to do! "
Both men roared as they stood up.
" Oh God! " I threw up my hands hopelessly in the air and then turned to my cousin.
" Jojie, please! " and then let myself fall on the chair and put my head in my hands.
I could feel the throbbing in my head from all the tension. I feel like I would explode any moment now.
" That's enough! I told you to sit down and stay away from M-Cee! "
But both guys paid him no mind. It was Ji Yong who spoke first.
" Chanel, I told you already that the decision - " I stood up and cut him off. DAMN! How could I make him see reason?
" Goddamit Ji Yong! Can't you see this? This mess? That I am a train wreck? That nothing good will come out if - " someone cut me off,too.
" Fu@k it Chanel! " Young Bae shouted at me.
"You are the one who can't see. You are the one who's blind! Why Chanel? Why don't you see me? Even now, you talk and look only at - " Young Bae seemed to be struggling to say Ji Yong's name, " as if I don't exist! Like I am just some random hole in the wall in this room! "
Young Bae's face is dark with rage. Every vein in his temples are visible. His expression murderous. A different kind of chill swept through me. I keeled over- my hands gripped the edge of the table as the impact of his words made me nauseous and weak.
When he spoke again, he was no longer shouting. But I would have welcomed and preferred that over the dead and cold tone of his voice when he said,
" Let me tell you something Chanel that will finally make you notice me..." he paused. Letting his words hung over the room; you could cut the tension with a knife.
My heart pounding wildly against my chest. In the dead silence, something clicked in my head with a burst of intuition. But no - that can't be. There's no way that he could possibly....
" Yes, Chanel. I know who you are. I know the past that you ran away from. The secret that caused the shadows in your eyes. Everything Chanel...I know everything. "
I swayed - no - it must be the room that did. Young Bae's words rang in my ears... " Everything..." he said. That was the last word in my head before I finally slipped and fall into nothingness.
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