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Wow. So Much has happened to me since my last entry it is not even funny. First of all, Nik...that girl Amanda that I was talking to when you gave me a ride home from POVs....If I hear the phrase "Lets just be friends" one more time this month...I will probably have to put a bullet in my own head. But seriously...I wont do that...I have wayyyyyyyyyyyy to much to live for. This girl Amanda is a realll cool chick, but I get the impression that she just wants to be friends. She went through 4 years of college and is working in the same field that she graduated for. She told me straight up today that she wants more time to dedicate to her career than to a BF. That is more than cool enough for me, you know. I respect that. but I am at a point in my life where i NEED a female companion. I need a GF. I may not be the best looking motherfucker in the bunch...all I am asking for is someone who I can come home to and will still love me for whoever I am. But whatever. FUCK IT ALL AND FUCK IT NO REGRETS. I met this girl at a club called Euphoria tonight. She gave me her number. I never asked for it once. That makes me feel more than good enough on the inside. Backup...thats all it is. Tim and Marta. This is my RSVP for your engagement party....butI have to go to bed because I need sleepy and I am piss drunk. Have a good night and I will talk to you all some other time. PEACE