No more...
I came to a realization the other day. I really should stop doing the things that I have been doing. The drinking and the drugs need to stop. Now, let me tell you people one thing. Ganja is never going to stop for me, but all the other crap is. Coke, ex, all of that needs to go. I was doing so much of that shit and now I look back and wonder why. All of that money went down the drain. I mean...coke and ex are fun***ONLY WHEN YOU ARE DOING THEM***, but the payoff is that you are up ALL NIGHT. AND, your heart literally feels like it is going to explode. Then you are depressed the entire next day after you wake up. Now that doesnt sound like much fun to me.
The drinking needs to go too. I will still drink, but definitely not as much as i used to. Before it was "Hey, theres a bottle of Jack Daniels" then four hours later..."hey its gone, lets get some MORE!!!!!!!!!! Fuck that. I discussed all of this with my buddy Joe, and I asked him how I can end all of it. He told me I should surround myself with people who arent into all of this. Ben (we'll just call him that) is one of my best friends in the world, but there is no way in hell I can keep up with that kid and all the rest of our friends when it comes to drinking. Everytime I am over there (not exaggerating) they are drunk or getting drunk. I dont see how people can do that day in and day out. I got sucked into all of that and I cant do it anymore. Especially if I want a job. No more drugs (except Ganj) and wayyyyyyyyyyy less drinking are on the menu for me.
The drinking needs to go too. I will still drink, but definitely not as much as i used to. Before it was "Hey, theres a bottle of Jack Daniels" then four hours later..."hey its gone, lets get some MORE!!!!!!!!!! Fuck that. I discussed all of this with my buddy Joe, and I asked him how I can end all of it. He told me I should surround myself with people who arent into all of this. Ben (we'll just call him that) is one of my best friends in the world, but there is no way in hell I can keep up with that kid and all the rest of our friends when it comes to drinking. Everytime I am over there (not exaggerating) they are drunk or getting drunk. I dont see how people can do that day in and day out. I got sucked into all of that and I cant do it anymore. Especially if I want a job. No more drugs (except Ganj) and wayyyyyyyyyyy less drinking are on the menu for me.