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well i guess things have really changed.. i look back to the days when i wished i was more like you.. now i see myself trying to hide people from who u really are. you're not you. where have u gone? the days where you were the star cross country runner are gone. all motivation to go to college and attend UF has vanished. i thought about it all as i showered. weird i know. the day has gone by slowly for me.. but with the help of friends.. nothing is ever too difficult to withstand. the damage done to yourself as well as to other is to large to be measured. when will it end? i hope to god that rock bottom wont be soon, but when you do hit it hard, face first, know i will be here to help you. know we are all willing to help you, but you must help urself first. drugs are selfish and cruel. we all underestimate the danger and destruction that comes along with it. hopefully, before your 18th birthday, u will be better. i feel like pouring out anger as well as tears.. both of which wont help anything, as my dad has told me. none of this really makes sense.. its just a bunch of ramble... but these are my thoughts. most of you know who im talkin about and i know you guys can relate.... and wish everything would just make a complete 360 to being perfect again. reality has kicked in. im not sure that will ever happen.. at least not in my highschool years. drugs fuck everything up... not just the user.
how i wish i was in a fairy tale..
how i wish i was in a fairy tale..