well life is hell
Well life is hell... birthday...card from aunt with money to make roadtrip...very nice of her.. and a call from a friend... I was hoping for a picture to replace one the was lost when computer dead... sad thing is nothing from sisters.... no call or cards.. GF ...not a damm thing not a card... kiss... hug... hell not even help in shower to wash my back... not a fucking touch... I'm shown more love and caring from the cat... so fuck me harder and take my heart out and burn it.... When... go to bank to get some money should have over $900 in it but NO its gone court has taken it for a bill... so bend me over the fire and fuck me harder ... so no trip... no food... no meds this month... I have 1 vial of insulin so I'm turning pump down to it fifth of normal rates and no bolus and hoping to kept blood sugar under 500....untill I run out maybe 10 days ,,, hope to last until camp and I can get more insulin when... had another bleeder in my eye. ...when back on old H-tron pump because I can hear it to bolus and run temp basals... put it not a problem with no insulin... so bend me over the fire, cut out my heart and fuck me dry and harder until I ask the master for more.... and now to top it all last night some kids tried to set my van on fire.... so let me see... I have no money to fix it... no money for my meds... no money for food... no money for trip... very few people care if I live or die... my sister don't... GF has forgot how to show that she loves me... hell it don't need to be... dear come make love to me... I would be happy with a kiss ... a touch... a hug... a smile... and NOW TO REALLY FUCKUP MY MIND... i TRIED to see if I could give myself alittle joy... I Can't get a Fucking Hard On... so I guess it is time to cut it off and put it in a jar