convo.
ckyskater321: i love you manda bear
haha mandey haha: you want to know something?
ckyskater321: what
haha mandey haha: i always wanted to have a boyfriend that wanted to show me off & always said how he loved me & stuff.
ckyskater321: u ganna come to the party with me tomorrow right?
ckyskater321: b/c i want to be there with you
haha mandey haha: i dont know.
haha mandey haha: i want you to love me the way i love you andrew. thats all i want.
haha mandey haha: but you cant make someone love you.
ckyskater321: i love you amanda
ckyskater321: there is no one that i love more than you
ckyskater321: i would be shit with outyou
ckyskater321: i love you so much
haha mandey haha: then why do you try to hide me?
ckyskater321: like i dont think you acctually know how much i love you
haha mandey haha: its seems like to me youd rather castrait yourself then admit to someone im your girlfriend.
haha mandey haha: sometimes girls want to be shown off..
haha mandey haha: specially around other girls.
ckyskater321: idk im sorta afraid that since theres ganna be lots a guys there and stuff you might get interested in one of them while im smoking or something
ckyskater321: i dont want to lose you or nothin
ckyskater321: im a jealous person too
haha mandey haha: so youd rather the guys not think we are together?
ckyskater321: i mean like the other night when one of my team mates had sad if those two girls i was talking to where single i just sorta got worrried and thought about the party and shit
ckyskater321: no
ckyskater321: i want them to know
haha mandey haha: andrew how do you think i feel?
haha mandey haha: youre always around cheerleaders
ckyskater321: yea but i dont think about them
haha mandey haha: i know ashley is more attactive than me
ckyskater321: for all i care they have dicks
haha mandey haha: & you went straight to her when we were apart
ckyskater321: no she isnt
haha mandey haha: the whole time we were apart i was TORN APART
ckyskater321: dude u fuckin said you would drop that shit
ckyskater321: ok
ckyskater321: i dont fuckin bring up edmund all the fuckin time so get off my fuckin back
ckyskater321: what do i have to fuckin do amanda?
ckyskater321: all i do is love you
haha mandey haha: all i do is love you too andrew.. more than you will ever know.
ckyskater321: ok im sorry baby
haha mandey haha: but it hurts me when i feel like you dont want to see me & that drugs are more important
ckyskater321: just for everything
ckyskater321: drugs are never more important than you
haha mandey haha: its felt that way to me lately. everytime you talk about saturday its about smoking & not wanting me there because i will be bored
haha mandey haha: you dont see that as long as i am with you i will have a good time.
ckyskater321: im sorry
haha mandey haha: im the happiest when i am with you.
ckyskater321: i just dont want you to be bored and shit
ckyskater321: i wnat you to be happy and have a good time too
haha mandey haha: i wont. & ambers going so i definately wont.
ckyskater321: cool
ckyskater321: hey i need to ask you something?
haha mandey haha: okay?
ckyskater321: do you believe me when i say that i will never get into any hardcore drugs or ever get into that sorta things and that the only thing i will ever do is weed?
haha mandey haha: i trust you
haha mandey haha: but i do still worry
ckyskater321: i understand
haha mandey haha: ive lost too many people i love.
ckyskater321: but i just want you to know that im not ganna do that
haha mandey haha: i dont want to lose you
ckyskater321: i understand
ckyskater321: but i just want you to trust me that i wont do that
ckyskater321: like i dont even want to be taking those pain pills or anything
ckyskater321: cuz i know they are addicyting
ckyskater321: but i love you amanda and i just want you to trust me
ckyskater321: u talkin to rusty?
haha mandey haha: yeah.
haha mandey haha: i love you too andrew & i want you to trust me too.
ckyskater321: i do baby
ckyskater321: i love you so much
haha mandey haha: it hurts when you tell me you cant believe anything i say
ckyskater321: im sorry
haha mandey haha: ugh im crying.
haha mandey haha: i havent cried at all today
haha mandey haha: & you will go and make me cry
ckyskater321: awww im sorry
ckyskater321: go take a shit youll stop crying
haha mandey haha: do you think you could pick up me & amber tomorrow?
ckyskater321: yea
ckyskater321: no prob
thats for my keeping. idk why but the convo meant everything to me.