So Sore...... uggg
Hi, all that don't read my live journal. It is cool. This is for me anyway.
Well I started to work out a few days ago. Wow, I am so sore. It is the good kind of sore though, if there is such a thing. I am still a chunky butt, it is ok though. I am trying my hardest to do the right thing. I started back on my weight watchers diet, HOOYA !!!! I am really serious and want to get in the absolute best shape that my genetics will allow me to do. I want to be thin, buff, and sexy. It is a long road but something that I can totally accomplish. I fell off the wagon for about two weeks. My best friend was home for a short while and I was all depressed about many things. The major two things are he is getting shipped over seas in August for a year and no matter how hard I try not to be I am in love with Mandy. One of the worst things in the world is loving and caring about a person and they won't allow themselves to feel the same way. At least I think that's what the problem is.
I am having a hard time being just her friend. It sucks. I thought I had met the girl of my dreams and saw myself asking her to marry me down the road. I have never felt that way about anyone. I even got attached to her son. He is the cutest and smartest little boy I have ever known. I wanted to be a role model to him, a father figure if you will. But I guess everything happens for a reason. Things were meant to be this way. I need to move on with my life completely instead of halfway. It just hurts bad because I am a compassionate person when it comes to people I care about. .......... enough complaining from me. Sorry
Anyway, I think I am going to start to bodybuild. I don't want to get too crazy big. No steriods or anything like that. But stay big and in really good shape. I totally have the bone structure for it. It isn't that I am a lard ass, I am just a very big person. I carry all my fatness in my mid section. My arms legs and back are very strong just not cut. These are all things I am going to start to work on. = ] well time to go. I have to leave work to start my fun filled weekend. I am working at the bar tonight, trying to find something to do on saturday and going to a going away party for my friend Kristan on sunday. She is moving to California. She will be missed. ok bye
Well I started to work out a few days ago. Wow, I am so sore. It is the good kind of sore though, if there is such a thing. I am still a chunky butt, it is ok though. I am trying my hardest to do the right thing. I started back on my weight watchers diet, HOOYA !!!! I am really serious and want to get in the absolute best shape that my genetics will allow me to do. I want to be thin, buff, and sexy. It is a long road but something that I can totally accomplish. I fell off the wagon for about two weeks. My best friend was home for a short while and I was all depressed about many things. The major two things are he is getting shipped over seas in August for a year and no matter how hard I try not to be I am in love with Mandy. One of the worst things in the world is loving and caring about a person and they won't allow themselves to feel the same way. At least I think that's what the problem is.
I am having a hard time being just her friend. It sucks. I thought I had met the girl of my dreams and saw myself asking her to marry me down the road. I have never felt that way about anyone. I even got attached to her son. He is the cutest and smartest little boy I have ever known. I wanted to be a role model to him, a father figure if you will. But I guess everything happens for a reason. Things were meant to be this way. I need to move on with my life completely instead of halfway. It just hurts bad because I am a compassionate person when it comes to people I care about. .......... enough complaining from me. Sorry
Anyway, I think I am going to start to bodybuild. I don't want to get too crazy big. No steriods or anything like that. But stay big and in really good shape. I totally have the bone structure for it. It isn't that I am a lard ass, I am just a very big person. I carry all my fatness in my mid section. My arms legs and back are very strong just not cut. These are all things I am going to start to work on. = ] well time to go. I have to leave work to start my fun filled weekend. I am working at the bar tonight, trying to find something to do on saturday and going to a going away party for my friend Kristan on sunday. She is moving to California. She will be missed. ok bye