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okay, wow! it's been a long time since i updated this thing. i don't know why i do, i don't think anyone pays attention anymore. but anyways. i could really use some prayer right now. i'm dealing with a lot of stress. stress with family has gone down since i moved out, they're just being really annoying because they don't really want to accept the fact that i'm not moving back home!! my real stress come from not having enough money to pay all the bills with just my salary AND rent!!!!! i feel the people in RENT. how they don't have enough money to pay for anything. blake doesn't have a job right now, which really sucks, cuz my paychecks are only about $250, maybe $280 if its been a good 2 weeks. but with us trying to make it on soley on my paycheck, yeah it's not working out so hott. we have to come up with the almost 800+ dollars to pay for everything by the end of the month, and yeah it's deffinitly not going to happen unless God works a miracle. i'm really scared right now. cuz i know that we're broke, and can't afford to pay for anything really right now. why am i sharing all of this? i guess it's because i'm hoping that people still care enough about me out there that something will happen to help us out. this is not me begging people for money, this is me begging you all to pray. pray pray pray!!!!!!!!! pray that i'm able to find a new job, one that is full time and that i can work a lot of hours and pays really well. right now i don't care if its 2 jobs. or if i'm at 1 job for 12 hours. 12 hours at 7-8 bucks an hour is about 84-96 dollars a day. times that by 6 and you get 504-576 dollars a week. that's not bad. and then if you get payed biweekly it turns out to be between 1008-1152 dollars before deductions. so that wouldn't be that bad of a paycheckif i was able to work a job like that. i know that's probably not possible, but that's how desperate i am. also pray that blake can find a job. he's going crazy being here at home all day with nothing to do. he's restless and needs to find a job. i want him to be happy, and i know that he's not happy right now. he likes all the free time, but he feels really guilty cuz i'm the one having to support us, and there's no possible way that i can. so yeah, if you all could just be praying that that whole situation gets worked out in like the next few days!! that would be great!!! we are really desperate for anything to happen. and the other part i hate about my job is that my boss won't give me more hours. he knows i need more, but he won't give them to me. he treats me like i'm dirt pretty much. i think it's cuz i'm the youngest one there, but yeah. i need to get out of there. that's another thing that keeps bringing me down. along with whats been going on in the apartment. but i'll save that for another night.