where im headed
ok so i have just enrolled into edmonds community college to do my SENIOR year of high school as well as college! YES i cant wait to get it all done with, i work at wendy's and it fucking SUCKS! im already ready for a new job, im thinking fast food just isnt me. im more of a people person not a fucking make thier damn food person in less then 20 seconds. lol so yea i have a job and im hating it! lol but its cool. So yea this summer started for me since uhh may but thats alright since i lost my friends and now im re gainin some interesting ones. these ones are defenatly different from the ones i normally would have. but its a change and so far im alright with it. im tryin to socialize alot more since i went through a funk. i would love to hang out with who ever. i normally try and invite anyone and everyone to hang out as long as they arent gonna be uptight and feel like they ARE the agenda because guess what...leave when you want but have a good time...dont ruin it. yea so i went to one party so far of the summer that one was interesting...i'll leave it at that...of course guys are still letting me down or maybe im letting myself down? who knows but guys situation is the same as it always will be. too scared to commit but scared to be alone. lol but im being really good i swear! no one night stands at least...not sex i mean just fooling around or what not! lol im still a VIRGIN! YES lol not like its a big thing. im waitin til marriage...so yea i miss alot of the good times with alot of my old friends but ya know i cant do much since they are gone and doing thier own thing and we would always fight. see i dont try and be drama but if you ask for it by being RUDE or self centered then it just happends to COME OUT! ok so i can be a little bit of drama. but guess what i have been able to keep my opinions to myself. so careful if you ask..i will give you the truth thats how i am. i dont want to bullshit it! you need to know your ugly then shit i'll tell you lol but yea everyone has an opinion mine is just more important jk totally jk. anyways yea im doing pretty darn good for myself...not one of those ppl who are like uhh what the hell do you want leave me alone or aww i hate the world....i'll listen til you just cross the line between needing someone and just fucking needing attension. idk im making myself sound like a bitch but im really not, im just complicated sometimes. but i would like everyone know that those who knew me this last year and only have negative images of me..well im no longer that person lol i have a happy party person now, but also responcible...anyways im gonna go to bed now just had some stuff on my mind...ttyl xoxo fran