Reminiscing
Rating: Pg-13, because of dark themes.
Length: One-shot
Summary: It's never easy when you keep it all inside, but its always easy to let go of reality, and slip away.
Fandom: Big Bang
Focus: Daesung
A/N: Something I felt like writing, and all my unfinished requests will be posted on this community a few days from now =) Sorry I was late, but now I'm done with exams.
Daesung tried, he really did, but all he could feel was an overwhelming guilt, he didn't deserve to live, if that man died, if it was his fault, no, it was his fault, if he hadn't been speeding, none of this would've happened. But it did, and the pain doesn't stop.
Just like his tears kept falling, never stopping until he would fall asleep. The nights were worse than the days, since he'd sleep through the days, but the nights were just too cold. No matter how long his shirts were, or how thick his blanket was, he always felt cold.
He misses them, his friends and family, and he only wonders how he lasted this long, with only himself as company, its eating him away on the inside, and he can't see it, no one can see it. It hurts, and he deals with it, like everything else in his life as a singer, he has to, but somehow he's suffocating, trying to keep all these overwhelming emotions inside. He can't believe he's pushing away everyone else, but he has to, he's Kang Daesung, no should see 'Big Bang's Smiling Angel' in tears, no matter what, he knows they're all already upset, but he knows that his tears will just break the dam, and they won't be able to pull up the act anymore.
Every thing's turned grey, and Daesung can barely get himself out of bed to pick up the plates of food that they've been leaving outside his door, and he can't even pretend to have eaten it. It hurts, and that's all he can say for himself, it hurts to the extent where his tears have run dry, and his lips have become cold. His stomach growls, and all he does is ignore it, so he can suffer, because he deserves it. He killed a man, who may have had a chance to live, and he took it away form him, just because he may have went a bit over the speed limit, and also because he couldn't see.
He was always a fool, but he didn't think that it's would go this far, its past the fourth night without food, and only water, and Daesung can barely keep his eyes open. And he stops trying.
It should end, just like it started, a life for a life, as everything fades into black, you can hear a faint but hoarse whisper of "Mianhe, Hyun, mianhe. Forgive me?" and the silence takes over.
Length: One-shot
Summary: It's never easy when you keep it all inside, but its always easy to let go of reality, and slip away.
Fandom: Big Bang
Focus: Daesung
A/N: Something I felt like writing, and all my unfinished requests will be posted on this community a few days from now =) Sorry I was late, but now I'm done with exams.
Daesung tried, he really did, but all he could feel was an overwhelming guilt, he didn't deserve to live, if that man died, if it was his fault, no, it was his fault, if he hadn't been speeding, none of this would've happened. But it did, and the pain doesn't stop.
Just like his tears kept falling, never stopping until he would fall asleep. The nights were worse than the days, since he'd sleep through the days, but the nights were just too cold. No matter how long his shirts were, or how thick his blanket was, he always felt cold.
He misses them, his friends and family, and he only wonders how he lasted this long, with only himself as company, its eating him away on the inside, and he can't see it, no one can see it. It hurts, and he deals with it, like everything else in his life as a singer, he has to, but somehow he's suffocating, trying to keep all these overwhelming emotions inside. He can't believe he's pushing away everyone else, but he has to, he's Kang Daesung, no should see 'Big Bang's Smiling Angel' in tears, no matter what, he knows they're all already upset, but he knows that his tears will just break the dam, and they won't be able to pull up the act anymore.
Every thing's turned grey, and Daesung can barely get himself out of bed to pick up the plates of food that they've been leaving outside his door, and he can't even pretend to have eaten it. It hurts, and that's all he can say for himself, it hurts to the extent where his tears have run dry, and his lips have become cold. His stomach growls, and all he does is ignore it, so he can suffer, because he deserves it. He killed a man, who may have had a chance to live, and he took it away form him, just because he may have went a bit over the speed limit, and also because he couldn't see.
He was always a fool, but he didn't think that it's would go this far, its past the fourth night without food, and only water, and Daesung can barely keep his eyes open. And he stops trying.
It should end, just like it started, a life for a life, as everything fades into black, you can hear a faint but hoarse whisper of "Mianhe, Hyun, mianhe. Forgive me?" and the silence takes over.