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I'm at Red Lobster waiting tables when I see another boy walk in. Very cute, sits as one of Jason's tables. The boy talks to Jason and then I see the boy give Jason a necklace and tell him he loves Jason. Jason puts the necklace on and tells the other boy that he loves him too.
I start crying, I run up to Jason and ask him "how can you say you love someone when you have just left me?!". He says "I don't know, I just love him more then you, get out of my face".
I run out the door and jump into my car. I sit in my car crying uncontrollably as I watch Jason walk out of the restaurant with his new lover. Jason kisses the boy and tells him again how much he loves him. I speed off to the house we both used to live in. I call Jason and tell him he has to come to the house and talk to me. He doesn't want to, but he ends up saying he will.
I get to the house, leave the door unlocked and go into the bedroom. I sit on the bed we used to sleep on together just crying my heart out. I hear Jason pull up to the house and get out of his car. He comes into the house and walks into the bedroom. Seeing me sitting on the bed crying, he coldly asks, "what the fuck is wrong with you? Get over it". I say, "Jason I love you and you are killing everything inside of me." He starts to turn around and head for the door. I scream, "wait, don't leave me!"
He turns around and as I make eye contact with him I pull a gun our from behind my back and cock the trigger. I tell him one last time how much I loved him. I put the gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. My brains and blood splatter the wall behind me ruining the flower pictures we had hanging above the bed.
Its at this point I woke up this morning, crying and shaking. These are what my dreams are like, sleep isn't even an escape from the pain anymore.
I start crying, I run up to Jason and ask him "how can you say you love someone when you have just left me?!". He says "I don't know, I just love him more then you, get out of my face".
I run out the door and jump into my car. I sit in my car crying uncontrollably as I watch Jason walk out of the restaurant with his new lover. Jason kisses the boy and tells him again how much he loves him. I speed off to the house we both used to live in. I call Jason and tell him he has to come to the house and talk to me. He doesn't want to, but he ends up saying he will.
I get to the house, leave the door unlocked and go into the bedroom. I sit on the bed we used to sleep on together just crying my heart out. I hear Jason pull up to the house and get out of his car. He comes into the house and walks into the bedroom. Seeing me sitting on the bed crying, he coldly asks, "what the fuck is wrong with you? Get over it". I say, "Jason I love you and you are killing everything inside of me." He starts to turn around and head for the door. I scream, "wait, don't leave me!"
He turns around and as I make eye contact with him I pull a gun our from behind my back and cock the trigger. I tell him one last time how much I loved him. I put the gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. My brains and blood splatter the wall behind me ruining the flower pictures we had hanging above the bed.
Its at this point I woke up this morning, crying and shaking. These are what my dreams are like, sleep isn't even an escape from the pain anymore.