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Its over. I just returned from campus, there is no way I can pay Ball State. I can't go to school next fall and I'm going to have to drop my summer class. I've lost everything, my family, my home, Jason and my dreams of graduating from college. I can't stop crying, I had to hold back from crying in the Bursar's office, I am such a failure. That small dim flicker of hope I had has gone out. I don't know what to do, I feel so lost. I wish he was here, I need someone to hug and me and tell me its going to be ok. I'm so scared, I just don't know what to do.