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I feel so fucking sick right now. The anxiety Jason causes me is burning me out. He thought leaving me "would give me the motivation is do better in school". Ha, fucking haha, you know what its given me? The need to take anxiety medication, pre-stages of hypertension and a stomach Ulcer. I'm so fucking sick of this shit, why in gods name did I ever move here. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck.
I think he came in the house while I was gone, I don't know why but that really upsets me. I'm sitting her with my stomach in knots, dry heaving and gagging all because the idea of him showing up at the door. I wish I had the money to pack up my shit and leave this house. I hate it, I'm surround by his belonging and the memories of living with him. Oh my God I want to scream!
I think he came in the house while I was gone, I don't know why but that really upsets me. I'm sitting her with my stomach in knots, dry heaving and gagging all because the idea of him showing up at the door. I wish I had the money to pack up my shit and leave this house. I hate it, I'm surround by his belonging and the memories of living with him. Oh my God I want to scream!