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I could be becoming addicted to this. I've been goin on 27 mile bike rides everyother day and i think its going to be getting more frequent, not that its a bad thing but i don't really know why all of a sudden i've gottten so much into all of it. I think it may do with the fact taht if i don't get out and do something i start thinking too much and i get bored and make myself nuts over little things. My mind wandering is definately not constructive to many many things. I could easily see my routine including this every day....that would be something like 190 miles a week...some people don't even put that much on their cars in a week.
In other things that actually matter, i think things are going well with me and ryan. She just fits me very well and i'm never uncomfortable around her. i just wish there weren't the everpresent realtionship rules and etiquette where its either too soon to say certain things or you're unsure/unaware of where the other person stands and feels but asking them would be some kind of awkward intrusion on your part butyou know the subject has to be broached at some point to sate your curiosity and let things progress. All i know right now is that i'm really starting to have feelings for her and i'm beginning to let go of myself, which considering past events, is sort of a big thing. I really enjoy being with her and want to do so as often as i can but i realize that shes really overloaded with work so i don't want to be nagging her to drop all of her responsibilities just to satisfy myself. So i guess i need to find things to occupy myself with when i want to see her and can't...all my music equipment that i need to get things working is coming in soon so i'll be able to do that most of the time and actually finish things out. I shouldreally talk to her about everything soon though.
In other things that actually matter, i think things are going well with me and ryan. She just fits me very well and i'm never uncomfortable around her. i just wish there weren't the everpresent realtionship rules and etiquette where its either too soon to say certain things or you're unsure/unaware of where the other person stands and feels but asking them would be some kind of awkward intrusion on your part butyou know the subject has to be broached at some point to sate your curiosity and let things progress. All i know right now is that i'm really starting to have feelings for her and i'm beginning to let go of myself, which considering past events, is sort of a big thing. I really enjoy being with her and want to do so as often as i can but i realize that shes really overloaded with work so i don't want to be nagging her to drop all of her responsibilities just to satisfy myself. So i guess i need to find things to occupy myself with when i want to see her and can't...all my music equipment that i need to get things working is coming in soon so i'll be able to do that most of the time and actually finish things out. I shouldreally talk to her about everything soon though.