ikitomo 15
Chapter 15
Soundtrack: KTTUN - No More Pain
[OMG, already 15? feels like almost nothing has happened so far xD]
Aizawa stared at the big wooden door in disbelief. Why was he running off now? Sure, that hug had been a bit rushed and out of the blue, but this wasn't the first time after all. Which was weird enough already. What the heck was he supposed to think now? If he didn't know better, he'd say that this was like a good-bye, but it wasn't. Or at least he hoped so.
As he tried to go on, his knees suddenly gave in for a short moment and he leaned against the wall to prevent himself from falling. Why the heck were his knees shaking now? And moreover, why was his whole body shaking? Cold sweat was leaking through every pore in his skin and his heartbeat was like the rhythm of the Caramell Dansen. Maybe his level of blood sugar was too low.
After a long night full of deep sleep he arrived at the hospital for his next shift somewhen around lunch time. On the way here he'd kept thinking about how to face Ryosuke. Obviously that guy wasn't really feeling comfortable with what had happened the day before. Or he'd been right before peeing into his pants, which was rather unlikely.
While he was changing into his work clothes in the locker room he suddenly heard the door closing, which was strange since nobody except him had been in there.
As he opened the door and looked outside, he saw the back of Ryosuke's face, since the guy was facing the opposite wall and didn't move an inch.
As the younger one turned around, he almost ran into Aizawa but could stop himself right in time.
Okay. Say something. Now.
"Ohayou." Aizawa said. Wow. Good one. "Why aren't you coming in?"
Ryosuke looked nervous.
“Uhm... I just saw a spider on the door and-”
Okay, let's just get this over with. It was just too awkward.
“Anway, you should hurry, the shift's starting soon.”
“Ah you're right, sorry...”
Ryosuke bent his head and went inside. Aizawa'd actually wanted to just go ahead and not wait for him, but something wasn't right. The whole tension. Something was up. And it was because of that sudden escape yesterday.
And it was extraordinarily hot in here.
Ryosuke started changing into his white outfit with a sigh, and Aizawa thought about how pale he was today. Maybe he'd been thinking all night about the day before. Even though there shouldn't be anything to worry about. Or maybe... maybe Aizawa's fears had become reality and it was just too much for the younger one, that sudden talk about friendship and all. Maybe he'd scared him.
Just as he wanted to leave the room again, Ryosuke turned around, obviously only now noticing that he was still here and then started to talk.
"Uhm... you now about yesterday I a-"
Aizawa's reaction was good, or else Ryosuke's lips would be kissing the ground now.
The young doctor could feel the adrenaline rushing through his veins as Ryosuke opened his eyes slowly and kept staring at him, fear showing in his expression.
"I- I'll go ahead..." Aizawa said, helped Ryosuke to get on his feet again and hurriedly left the room.
What was that about his chest aching and his desire to hold that boy longer, much longer than he'd done just now? He had to get rid of those weird feelings. Ryosuke was afraid of him, and if he ended up hating him again, it would just hinder their efficiency at work.
Aizawa made his way to the stacks as one of the nurses came in, screaming: "Aizawa-sensei! Hurry, Ryosuke-kun's unconscious in the locker room!"
The doctor's sight blurred for a moment, before he dropped everything his fingers had held just a second ago and started running, not waiting for the nurses to follow him.
As he arrived, Ryosuke was already put in recovery position, but still unconscious.
Kousaku checked on his vitals, pupils and whatelse, before he heaved him up and carried the guy on his arms to his examination room.
What the heck was going on here? He was pretty sure it had something to do with Ryosuke's late headaches, but he had to make some tests for that. As the nurse who'd followed him gathered stuff on Aizawa's desk, he sat beside the small bed and stared at Ryosuke's face. What the hell was going on here?
Was that an eyelid moving?
"Ryosuke? Ryosuke, can you hear me?"
Kousaku got up, waiting for Ryosuke to fully open his eyes or at least say something.
And finally he was able to see those beautiful eyes again, without having to force them open.
"Ryosuke... how do you feel? Are you hurt somewhere?"
"N...no... I'm okay... where am I? Ah... that's your room, isn't it?"
"Great, no loss of memory." Kousaku smiled for a second. "Can you tell me what happened?"
Ryosuke wanted to sit straight, but was pushed back again by Aizawa.
"Let's wait a few more minutes before you get up, okay?" Aizawa stated in a doctor-like manner. No need for sentimentals now.
While he continued on his examinations, Ryosuke said: "Actually... after we... after you'd caught me... and... left... my head just started to hurt really badly and that's actually all I can remember so far."
"So I guess you fainted at that point and dropped to the floor. Still no pain? How's your head now?" Aizawa asked as he turned around to get his stethoscope and instead found the nurse observing them curiously.
"Thank you. You... can leave now." Aizawa said, nodded a short good-bye and grabbed the stethoscope.
As he turned towards Ryosuke again, the guy stared at him with his mouth open, which made Kousaku want to close it with his own...
"So, your head?"
"Ah, yes... Like I said, I'm fine..."
"Take your clothes off."
"What?"
"Your... shirt. Take it off, please."
What the heck was he thinking?
"O-okay..." Ryosuke said and tried to get up, but was obviously still a bit too weak.
"Wait, let me help you."
Aizawa held Ryosuke's hands as he slowly pulled him into a sitting position. As he let go, he was relieved to see that Ryosuke was able to sit without his help, even though he'd grabbed the thin mattress under his butt to not fall forward.
"I-" Aizawa gulped. "I need to remove this."
Kousaku started undoing the buttons on Ryosuke's shirt while the younger one started a slow but constant rhythm of rocking forth and back, which was probably caused by high blood pressure.
Cautiously Aizawa pulled the cloth aside and started listening to the younger one's heartbeat. Wow, that was fast. But the rhythm was okay.
"How's your sight? Blurry or ok?"
"I'm... scared." Ryosuke mumbled, causing Aizawa to look straight into his eyes. "What if-..."
"Hey..." Aizawa sat down on his chair and rolled forward, leaving practically no space between them.
"Don't worry, everything will be okay. We'll just do a few tests and then we'll know more."
Ryosuke barely nodded as Aizawa dressed him up properly again, the young doctor's eyes fixed on the fair skin. Which monster would have thoughts like these while he was facing an obviously sick patient?
"And about yesterday..." Ryosuke started. "I'm sorry. For hugging you and just running off. But I... it was strange, you see? Every time I see you-"
"Shh..." Aizawa took Ryosuke's hands again, causing the guy to look at him.
And again he was amazed by those eyes. Dark and clear, and he felt like losing himself them. And he didn't just feel like it. He really did lose his whole self in them.
"Ryosuke..." Kousaku's hand moved towards Ryosuke's face and came to rest on the student's cheek. Ryosuke was surprised at first, but then leaned into the hand and closed his eyes.
Which broke every existing barrier in Kousaku's mind and body. Slowly he leaned forward, his face now merely inches from Ryosuke's, as he whispered the other one's name.
"Ryosuke..."
As said one opened his eyes again, he moved back a bit in surprise, but still stayed like this without trying to get out of this. In fact, Aizawa felt Ryosuke's hand touching Kousaku's lifted arm. He held on to him with a firm grip, which was still soft enough to be gentle to Aizawa.
And still, while something in his head told him that this was utterly wrong, Kousaku leaned in and cautiously touched Ryosuke's lips with his own.
Hesitantly, he drew back again, looking at Ryosuke whose eyes where half closed and he could feel the grip around his arm tighten a bit.
As he wanted to lean forward again, he could suddenly feel Ryosuke's hand in his neck, pulling the young doctor closer and Kousaku gave in and pushed Ryosuke back a little, until he leaned against the wall behind him. Their lips started moving against each other, just as their chests were pressed against each other so there wasn't even enough space for a sheet of paper between them.
Aizawa got up so he was close enough to Ryosuke's mouth while Ryosuke's hands both were on Kousaku's neck now, pulling him closer still and he opened his legs a bit so Kousaku's hips would fit between them.
"We shouldn't..." Aizawa started.
"No, but..." Ryosuke agreed without bothering to finish his sentence. Instead he let his hand wander over Aizawa's chest and belly and finally rested it on the doctor's back, pulling him closer.
The older one let his lips wander down Ryosuke's chin and throat and neck, where he placed little kisses on while his arms where caressing his back.
After a little while Aizawa's kisses became slower until he completely stopped kissing the boy and rested his forehead on the guy's shoulder.
"Let's stop here, okay? I'm... I'm sorry..." Aizawa said, while still holding on to Ryosuke.
Soundtrack: KTTUN - No More Pain
[OMG, already 15? feels like almost nothing has happened so far xD]
Aizawa stared at the big wooden door in disbelief. Why was he running off now? Sure, that hug had been a bit rushed and out of the blue, but this wasn't the first time after all. Which was weird enough already. What the heck was he supposed to think now? If he didn't know better, he'd say that this was like a good-bye, but it wasn't. Or at least he hoped so.
As he tried to go on, his knees suddenly gave in for a short moment and he leaned against the wall to prevent himself from falling. Why the heck were his knees shaking now? And moreover, why was his whole body shaking? Cold sweat was leaking through every pore in his skin and his heartbeat was like the rhythm of the Caramell Dansen. Maybe his level of blood sugar was too low.
After a long night full of deep sleep he arrived at the hospital for his next shift somewhen around lunch time. On the way here he'd kept thinking about how to face Ryosuke. Obviously that guy wasn't really feeling comfortable with what had happened the day before. Or he'd been right before peeing into his pants, which was rather unlikely.
While he was changing into his work clothes in the locker room he suddenly heard the door closing, which was strange since nobody except him had been in there.
As he opened the door and looked outside, he saw the back of Ryosuke's face, since the guy was facing the opposite wall and didn't move an inch.
As the younger one turned around, he almost ran into Aizawa but could stop himself right in time.
Okay. Say something. Now.
"Ohayou." Aizawa said. Wow. Good one. "Why aren't you coming in?"
Ryosuke looked nervous.
“Uhm... I just saw a spider on the door and-”
Okay, let's just get this over with. It was just too awkward.
“Anway, you should hurry, the shift's starting soon.”
“Ah you're right, sorry...”
Ryosuke bent his head and went inside. Aizawa'd actually wanted to just go ahead and not wait for him, but something wasn't right. The whole tension. Something was up. And it was because of that sudden escape yesterday.
And it was extraordinarily hot in here.
Ryosuke started changing into his white outfit with a sigh, and Aizawa thought about how pale he was today. Maybe he'd been thinking all night about the day before. Even though there shouldn't be anything to worry about. Or maybe... maybe Aizawa's fears had become reality and it was just too much for the younger one, that sudden talk about friendship and all. Maybe he'd scared him.
Just as he wanted to leave the room again, Ryosuke turned around, obviously only now noticing that he was still here and then started to talk.
"Uhm... you now about yesterday I a-"
Aizawa's reaction was good, or else Ryosuke's lips would be kissing the ground now.
The young doctor could feel the adrenaline rushing through his veins as Ryosuke opened his eyes slowly and kept staring at him, fear showing in his expression.
"I- I'll go ahead..." Aizawa said, helped Ryosuke to get on his feet again and hurriedly left the room.
What was that about his chest aching and his desire to hold that boy longer, much longer than he'd done just now? He had to get rid of those weird feelings. Ryosuke was afraid of him, and if he ended up hating him again, it would just hinder their efficiency at work.
Aizawa made his way to the stacks as one of the nurses came in, screaming: "Aizawa-sensei! Hurry, Ryosuke-kun's unconscious in the locker room!"
The doctor's sight blurred for a moment, before he dropped everything his fingers had held just a second ago and started running, not waiting for the nurses to follow him.
As he arrived, Ryosuke was already put in recovery position, but still unconscious.
Kousaku checked on his vitals, pupils and whatelse, before he heaved him up and carried the guy on his arms to his examination room.
What the heck was going on here? He was pretty sure it had something to do with Ryosuke's late headaches, but he had to make some tests for that. As the nurse who'd followed him gathered stuff on Aizawa's desk, he sat beside the small bed and stared at Ryosuke's face. What the hell was going on here?
Was that an eyelid moving?
"Ryosuke? Ryosuke, can you hear me?"
Kousaku got up, waiting for Ryosuke to fully open his eyes or at least say something.
And finally he was able to see those beautiful eyes again, without having to force them open.
"Ryosuke... how do you feel? Are you hurt somewhere?"
"N...no... I'm okay... where am I? Ah... that's your room, isn't it?"
"Great, no loss of memory." Kousaku smiled for a second. "Can you tell me what happened?"
Ryosuke wanted to sit straight, but was pushed back again by Aizawa.
"Let's wait a few more minutes before you get up, okay?" Aizawa stated in a doctor-like manner. No need for sentimentals now.
While he continued on his examinations, Ryosuke said: "Actually... after we... after you'd caught me... and... left... my head just started to hurt really badly and that's actually all I can remember so far."
"So I guess you fainted at that point and dropped to the floor. Still no pain? How's your head now?" Aizawa asked as he turned around to get his stethoscope and instead found the nurse observing them curiously.
"Thank you. You... can leave now." Aizawa said, nodded a short good-bye and grabbed the stethoscope.
As he turned towards Ryosuke again, the guy stared at him with his mouth open, which made Kousaku want to close it with his own...
"So, your head?"
"Ah, yes... Like I said, I'm fine..."
"Take your clothes off."
"What?"
"Your... shirt. Take it off, please."
What the heck was he thinking?
"O-okay..." Ryosuke said and tried to get up, but was obviously still a bit too weak.
"Wait, let me help you."
Aizawa held Ryosuke's hands as he slowly pulled him into a sitting position. As he let go, he was relieved to see that Ryosuke was able to sit without his help, even though he'd grabbed the thin mattress under his butt to not fall forward.
"I-" Aizawa gulped. "I need to remove this."
Kousaku started undoing the buttons on Ryosuke's shirt while the younger one started a slow but constant rhythm of rocking forth and back, which was probably caused by high blood pressure.
Cautiously Aizawa pulled the cloth aside and started listening to the younger one's heartbeat. Wow, that was fast. But the rhythm was okay.
"How's your sight? Blurry or ok?"
"I'm... scared." Ryosuke mumbled, causing Aizawa to look straight into his eyes. "What if-..."
"Hey..." Aizawa sat down on his chair and rolled forward, leaving practically no space between them.
"Don't worry, everything will be okay. We'll just do a few tests and then we'll know more."
Ryosuke barely nodded as Aizawa dressed him up properly again, the young doctor's eyes fixed on the fair skin. Which monster would have thoughts like these while he was facing an obviously sick patient?
"And about yesterday..." Ryosuke started. "I'm sorry. For hugging you and just running off. But I... it was strange, you see? Every time I see you-"
"Shh..." Aizawa took Ryosuke's hands again, causing the guy to look at him.
And again he was amazed by those eyes. Dark and clear, and he felt like losing himself them. And he didn't just feel like it. He really did lose his whole self in them.
"Ryosuke..." Kousaku's hand moved towards Ryosuke's face and came to rest on the student's cheek. Ryosuke was surprised at first, but then leaned into the hand and closed his eyes.
Which broke every existing barrier in Kousaku's mind and body. Slowly he leaned forward, his face now merely inches from Ryosuke's, as he whispered the other one's name.
"Ryosuke..."
As said one opened his eyes again, he moved back a bit in surprise, but still stayed like this without trying to get out of this. In fact, Aizawa felt Ryosuke's hand touching Kousaku's lifted arm. He held on to him with a firm grip, which was still soft enough to be gentle to Aizawa.
And still, while something in his head told him that this was utterly wrong, Kousaku leaned in and cautiously touched Ryosuke's lips with his own.
Hesitantly, he drew back again, looking at Ryosuke whose eyes where half closed and he could feel the grip around his arm tighten a bit.
As he wanted to lean forward again, he could suddenly feel Ryosuke's hand in his neck, pulling the young doctor closer and Kousaku gave in and pushed Ryosuke back a little, until he leaned against the wall behind him. Their lips started moving against each other, just as their chests were pressed against each other so there wasn't even enough space for a sheet of paper between them.
Aizawa got up so he was close enough to Ryosuke's mouth while Ryosuke's hands both were on Kousaku's neck now, pulling him closer still and he opened his legs a bit so Kousaku's hips would fit between them.
"We shouldn't..." Aizawa started.
"No, but..." Ryosuke agreed without bothering to finish his sentence. Instead he let his hand wander over Aizawa's chest and belly and finally rested it on the doctor's back, pulling him closer.
The older one let his lips wander down Ryosuke's chin and throat and neck, where he placed little kisses on while his arms where caressing his back.
After a little while Aizawa's kisses became slower until he completely stopped kissing the boy and rested his forehead on the guy's shoulder.
"Let's stop here, okay? I'm... I'm sorry..." Aizawa said, while still holding on to Ryosuke.