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I am trying not to want anything to be different from the way that it is, to smooth out my jumping will that always says, "but" or "if" or "then". And even when I say that I can feel the whole attitude of my body shift. Then the feelings that are there need no resolution, no future thing to fill them, because they are just as they are, whole. And if you think about it, you never really acomplish anything, you try, give effort, and then things just happen. And it is the same with all situtions and emotions and everything. They are just happening. They dont mean anything. They dont need anything from us. We dont need to change them. The life is just to feel. We only have to feel. And the sooner I stop wanting things to be different, the sooner I will feel comfortable just being alive. Because really, everything is always okay. There is no crisis. Its funny to just try to imagine yourself like you are anything else in the room- a chair, a table, a piece of bread. To feel all the feelings but not have any possesion about them. Because they are not you, they are just happening. They have nothing to do with you really. And I think that it is only taking everything so personally that causes us pain. We find oursleves trapped within such a small space when really we are so infinate.