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She’s cold. Her head hurts. She’s hungry. Really hungry.

But Vicki does her best to push those thoughts aside as she runs. The perks, as Damon called them, weren’t so bad. Maybe it would only get better, though she imagines it would be the latter. The brisk air of the night keeps her hair behind her as she does her best to navigate at such a speed

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"It's... like this break in time and space? I don't know. They kind of just appear and suck you in from your own universe, wherever you are, whenever you are... and drop you here," Jeremy says quietly as he looks at her, and it's so hard to explain.

All of it is so hard to explain. He doesn't know how to say that it's been so much time since he's seen her. That he fell for someone after she was gone and they died too. And then he fell for someone else. The words don't come. He doesn't know how they could.

At least if she-- if she tried to drink from him accidentally now, he would just come back to life in a few minutes. He's still wearing his ring. Jeremy knows how unstable her sister said she was when she was... killed the second time. He wouldn't blame her.

"Vicki--" He doesn't move too much. There's a familiarity to her touch, and it calls to that part of himself that's always aching, that feels lonely even when he's surrounded by people. "It's complicated."

And he doesn't want to upset her especially not right now. He doesn't even know where he should take her because she would-- she is not going to be safe at the Tower right now. Jeremy could ask Damon if she could stay with him, but he is the one that killed her and this is- "I haven't seen you... in a really, really long time, but I know... you're not ok. I know what happened. I figured it out a lot later back home."

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“Oh.” She nods, taking his words as simple as that. She’d ask everything when she had half the mind to later. Right now nothing could process.

Her brows do furrow in confusion when he starts talking again. He hadn’t seen her in a while? It had only been a few days. She hoped she didn’t lose track of that much time, though a part of her doubted that was the case.

And his last words make her body tense.

You’re not ok. However he found out - how much time had it been? She let’s her gaze go down to her feet before looking up to him, a thousand unreadable emotions on her face. Her hand falls from his face, and though she means to let it fall to her side, she ends up gripping his shirt.

It didn’t change her, she truly believed that. She was still Vicki. The same one he’d fallen for before. The same one with the problems, just now they were vampire problems. But the way he’s looking at her so torn, she can tell there’s more to it.

That doesn’t stop the anger in her voice.

“I didn’t want this.”

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Jeremy knows that about her. It would be impossible for her to process everything right now, and he doesn't want to overwhelm her anymore by saying half of what's happened.

He swallows thickly, looking down before he manages to look back up at her. This is harder than he ever thought it could be, and right now, his best idea about where to take her is Damon's apartment.

And Jeremy would want to move in with her to make sure Damon didn't kill her this... time. Not that there would be anything he could do. Not that Damon is going to be easy to convince.

And Elena would not be happy with that.

At all.

Jeremy is trying not to think about that. He doesn't even know how he'd manage to convince Damon to let this happen, but he knows that it has to if Vicki stands any chance of not suffering the same fate again. Damon drinks blood from human bags here. He doesn't kill people.

He could theoretically help Vicki.

Theoretically. Not that Damon can be trusted or that Damon helps anyone unless he has his own selfish needs behind it.

He looks up at her, shaking his head and resting his hand on her arm to steady her and somehow steady himself too. "I know. I know you didn't. It wasn't your fault, okay? Look we should go somewhere more safe. There's this Tower where people like us stay, but it's-- I don't know if you should go there right now while you're-- while you're still new at this."

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“Then why are you saying that?” The hostility in her tone fades away as her question finishes. Nervously, she starts biting down on her lower lip. He was afraid, and if it wasn’t of her it had to be of this place. And she doesn’t know what he wants her to do or how to take this, so she listens.

Until he’s finished, at least. Then she tries to think of something to say, some reaction that he can’t respond negatively to. His behavior has put her on a little more edge, but she’s not willing to point that out now.

“So where am I supposed to stay?” It sounds more anxious than anything, but her tone is quiet; curious, even. Her grip on him loosens until her arms are by her side. She then crosses them.

And she has so much more she wants to ask. Where has he been staying? With who? Was he actually afraid of her or just the damage she might cause?

So long as he wasn’t ashamed of her, she’d take the worst answers for any of the questions. So she simply asks:

“Where are you going to stay?”

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"I just-- I know you don't have a lot of control right now, because it happened so recently, because it does change things even if you're still Vicki," Jeremy says quietly, sliding his hand behind his neck. "I know you don't want to hurt anyone but I know... that you're hungry too."

He releases a breath, shaking his head. He's still wracking his brain for an idea, but Damon is the best bet. It's the matter of finding something that convinces him to take her in, take him in too.

"I-- Damon's here too. He has an apartment. I can try to convince him to let you move in with him," Jeremy says as he looks at her, because it's the best idea that he has.

He doesn't know how he'll convince him but he has to try.

"I don't know yet, Vicki. I was at the Tower then I moved somewhere else with Elena, but I want to... I want to take care of you. I don't think I really did before, and-- You should come with me."

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She remains silent again. He's right, like he usually is, so what point could she have to prove? Even looking at him all she could think about was the blood; but it wasn't too overwhelming yet. And at Damon, he's lost her.

Damon had killed her. Twice. And he'd probably do it again under any circumstances. But she wasn't exactly afraid of him.

At least he'd let her have people blood.

"Is Stefan there?" And as she asks, she's trying to consider other options. Even though she knows nothing about this place or who's in it.

"You never did anything wrong." It's a firm statement, and she's very serious in saying it. Aside from Matt, whose job it was to take care of her, Jeremy always looked out for her. Even when she didn't want him to. She still could feel that there was more than what he was telling her now but didn't want to press it. Whatever it was, it couldn't be good.

"Am I going with you or Damon? I'll go, Jer, but I'd rather just stay where you are."

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Jeremy knows. He hates more than anything to bring her to Damon, but Damon has changed a lot too. He helped when he didn't have to even if it was only to keep Elena from hating him. One time he tried to give him advice too. In his room.

Even if it didn't have the results he likely intended.

"No, there's no Stefan. It's Elena, Damon, and me from our world. That's all," he says as he slides his hand through his hair. "I'd... I'd want you to be able to go to the Tower. You get the most support there from everyone. It's like a community. But if--"

If she kills someone, she wouldn't want that. He wouldn't want that to happen either.

You never did anything wrong. Jeremy looks at her for a moment, and he doesn't know that he can believe that.

It's difficult.

"I'll stay with you, Vicki," he promises, and there's so much to say but he wants it to come from him. He doesn't want it to happen until she's adjusted to this place either. "When you get... I mean when you feel like you can be around people without the-- you could go to the Tower instead."

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"So...no Matt, either?" It brings her down, more emotionally than expressively, but maybe it was for the better that he wasn't here with her. He was safe at home with one less person to clean up after. Quietly, she fidgets.

"I can go. I'll be ok." Only she won't. And somewhere she knows it, especially with so many unfamiliar faces, but it was a risk she was willing to take.

No matter how careless.

And the way he starts the explanation sets her hopes high. Enough for her to bare her teeth in a smile-- then he finishes. Of course he wouldn't just come with her, he'd stay with his sister over her. And maybe she was selfish for wanting otherwise but whatever.

She was selfish.

"Why don't you just come with me? Until you trust me around everyone." She could play the 'Damon isn't safe' card but he already knew that. He had to by now - and the way he seemed to trust him enough to let her stay there was enough to tell her it'd be hard to talk him out of it.

Or maybe a part of him didn't care. Unlikely, but it would make sense. She always just stumbled in on his life, and right now he was borderline freaking out about it.

"Just go with me. Or take me to the Tower or whatever." And she leans back forward, resting the side of her head against his shoulder and anxiously waiting for his answers.

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"No, Vicki. I'm sorry about that," Jeremy says, and she doesn't have to show it for him to know that it upsets her. He saw Matt after Vicki was missing, after she was confirmed dead too. They're close.

He looks at her as she insists that she'll be okay. "I don't know if you will yet. I know you can beat this thing, okay? I know it." It's not a risk that he's willing to take. "But... I'm from way into your future, a future where you don't disappear into a Rift."

A future where she dies instead, and he can't say that out here on the street at all so he lets the words fall from his lips. It's complicated. He wants to protect her, but he wants to protect Elena too. Jeremy doesn't even know how he-- how to deal with the fact that Vickie is here.

She is here when he thought she was dead this whole time.

When there was Annie and then Bonnie.

When they were together, it was so much about the drugs and he grieved when she disappeared. He was broken, but he dealt with it and he doesn't know how to deal with this. He's not the same kid he was when she knew him, but he still wants more than anything to make certain this time--

This time nothing happens to her.

Now he's experienced both of them dying. The only difference is that Elena came back. Elena's in danger here for reasons he can't say out loud so he wants to try to protect them both, but he's not able to do so.

"Because Vickie... I couldn't stop you. If you were hungry or just... reacted, I wouldn't be able to stop you from hurting someone in the Tower. You could hurt me without wanting to or meaning to," Jeremy says quietly, sliding his hand over his finger. "Now this ring... it means that I'll come back if anything did happen but no one else has something like this. Do you really want to take that risk?"

He looks at her carefully.

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"So then what we had-- you didn't see more." She uses past tense based on what she's put together from his wording. He was from her future, a future where they obviously weren't together for whatever reason. And whatever that reason was, she didn't care to find out.

She also doesn't make it a question intentionally.

"Fine. I get it, whatever. It was only so long before you got bored or tired of taking care of--" And she let's her sentence go. She doesn't want to go into it and she's on the verge of something. She isn't able to depict if it's breaking down or freaking out. This transition made all her emotions rage.

And she knew she couldn’t control them, let alone her new craving for blood.

She lowers her gaze to his ring, a little curiously but more so she has time to blink away the tears in the backs of her eyes. Would she be willing to risk it? For all those people who would probably never care about her? She would, but she knows he doesn’t want to hear that.

And taking things the worst way possible with everything she was feeling wasn’t helping her judgment, right?

“No.” She pauses, still focusing on the ring. “Tell me where Damon is and I’m out of your hair, Jer.”

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Jeremy stares at her for a long moment. He's not really sure what... she's piecing together, but this isn't the time for her to piece together what happened or why he-- why he's changed so much and why he doesn't know what to do in this situation.

He stares at her and then glances down at the floor before looking up at her again.

"What? Vicki, you don't know-- You don't know what happened. That's not it at all," he says sa he looks at her. "I've always cared about you. You know that. That's-- It's not something you just get tired of."

Jeremy watches as she looks down at his ring and then he moves forward, resting a hand against her arm.

As gently as possible. There's some intensity to it too. Jeremy's never been known for a lack of emotion, and it's gotten him in trouble at times. He needs to convince her to listen to him, and he knows-- he has heard that emotions run high after the turn.

It's what happened with Caroline. He wishes he could have known about her too. He would have helped.

He knows she's already freaking out, and he doesn't want to make it worse.

"Look I'm not just going to let you get out of my hair. I want to help you. I want to take care of you. I don't want you--" He shakes his head. "You don't even know where we're at. How are you going to find your way to Damon's, Vick?"

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She flinches to his touch, but it does get her to look up to him. Her interpretations make her want to be angry with him, to keep her guard up the way she always did before him, but she can't. And she blames herself for trusting him so much.

He's telling her she's wrong, she's believing it.

It does get a faint smile to cross her lips, though. Not a happy reassuring one, a more sympathetic one. She wishes she knew what she was sorry about but she just doesn't.

She's confused and can only imagine how much of that is rubbing off on him. Still a little bitter, but happy to see him at the same time. And curious -- very curious about her future. Their future. She looks down to his hand that's on her arm before continuing. Her tone is soft and she hopes itsunreadable.

She isn't sure what she's feeling, but it isn't good.

"Well he always shows up on his own? If I looked long enough I figured he'd find me." She finishes with a somewhat childish shrug. "You'll come see me until I can stay with you?" She hesitantly locks eyes with him

"And one day...you'll tell me what happened?"

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Jeremy winces when she flinches. He didn't mean to startle her at all, but he's just... he's trying to get through to her. He's trying to push aside his own emotions so that he can take care of her this time. Like he couldn't before.

He wishes he could tell her so she'd understand, but he doesn't-- he doesn't want to do it here on the sidewalk as soon as she's fallen into this world. It doesn't seem fair to her.

How does he even begin to tell her everything that happened? How can he say the words to her that she died especially knowing it's at Damon's hands and they'll be going to Damon's apartment. It's so much more complicated than he could ever begin to explain.

Jeremy sucks in a breath that's sharp-- that hurts more than he'd like to admit to.

"Yeah, but I wouldn't-- You shouldn't just wander around. He has blood you can drink," he says quietly. Blood that doesn't result in someone dying. "I'm going to stay with you for the first week at least. I don't know if I trust him completely still. He's impulsive... when he's emotional. I don't even know if he'd say yes."

There's the slightest pause at the question. Almost like he's been hit in the stomach. His hand slides back into his hair.

"I'll tell you as soon as you ask me, whenever you want to know. I just didn't want to say it all out here. On the street..." His hand slides behind his neck as he looks away, biting back some feeling rising up in his throat.

It feels a little like fire, like something's going to burn him up from inside.

"C'mon," Jeremy says gently, keeping one hand on her arm still as he starts off toward Damon's. They're not far, but he still... doesn't know what he'll say when they arrive.

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Luckily, the future actually worries her too much right now. As much as she would just like to know and get it over with, there's a lot she's taking in right now; a lot she's doing her best to keep in emotionally.

And she still wants to know exactly how he's feeling; is he happy to see her? It's hard to tell.

"People blood?" The question comes out as a blurt, before he can even finish his sentence. Once he does, she says, "It's better than the other stuff...Stefan gave me this...yeah." She tucks her hair behind her ear. The fact that he'll be staying, even if only for a short time, makes her feel better.

But her attention shifts to him and she can tell her question bothers him. Good, it's another reason to hold off on it.

"Soon. After...this shit fest calms down." She wraps her arm around his, going in the direction of the new place she'd be staying.

Maybe.

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Jeremy nods at the question. He knows Damon drinks it from the packs. He is not going to revert to eating animal blood especially with the threat on the horizon for all of them but for Elena especially. And he hopes that Damon hasn't been drinking other people's blood too much, but he doesn't really know.

He doesn't spend much time with him. He clears his throat. "Yeah," Jeremy says though he doesn't know what animal or human blood is like. He wanted to be a vampire after losing her, after losing Anna especially.

Jeremy pulls her in close to him because it's... it's habit. He doesn't know how he feels either or what to feel. But he's grateful that she will-- she has the chance to be saved from the fate she suffered back home.

"Okay," he says quietly. "I don't want to push it on you, but..."

She does need to know, deserves to know.

When they get to Damon's apartment, Jeremy knocks on the door, steeling himself for this.

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Damon is slow to answer. He doesn't get many visitors other than Josef. Things are still weird between Elena and himself after their little spat over the journals. The only people that he's thinking it could be are the type that he would like to kill.

Or the one night stands coming back for another who he'd sex up again before using compulsion on them to make them forget and then leave.

He glances through the peephole, and okay. Unexpected. For his part, he doesn't look the least bit surprised when he opens up the door, leaning against the frame of it.

"Would you look at what the mangy Rift dragged in."

There's a slight pause.

"What do you want?"

Jeremy looks up at him. "She needs a place to stay, Damon."

"No, no. Absolutely not," Damon says, pressing his elbow into the doorway and moving to shut the door. "I'm not my brother. I don't do the rehabilitating baby vampires thing."

Jeremy moves his foot in front of the door before it can be closed. "Damon. If you want me on your side in the future about things with Elena, this is really in your best interest. I'm going to stay too, and-"

"Woah. Okay. I like my solitude believe it or not. I can have the company I want to as long as I want to and then I get to say goodbye. It's nice, and I would miss it if it went away. Just let her loose on the city streets and nature will take care of itself." He folds his arms across his chest. "You got over it once."

Jeremy wants to punch Damon, and he would. Except he knows how futile it is. He locks his jaw. "Seriously. Would you rather her be at the Tower or at Martha's house where Elena is?"

Damon's face darkens for a moment in that dangerous way that warns someone he could easily snap their necks (has done so before) without regret before he rolls his eyes, taking a step back. "Fine. For the night. Maybe."