"I can only trust as much as you deceive..."
Yesterday I saw Simon for the first time in a month. Thankfully no yelling occurred. We mostly chitchatted, stopping once to get a little serious about what I like to call "Our Incident". I'm having a hard time figuring it all out. I know I still care about him, even though everything is telling me to push him out of my life and he made it painfully clear that he still cares about Mason and I. He hurt and betrayed me so bad that it spun me upwards and backwards and shattered my faith in so much. When it was time for me to leave, he hugged me like he didn't really want to let go, probably because I was hugging him the same way. I hate that I still feel safe in his arms, dammit. I also got a joyous sunburn.
I also went out with Layne last night, to see a movie and eat donuts. When I'm with him I always laugh so hard...he's infectious that way. We have an amazing friendship and I am so thankful I have him. He is super excited for doing a pub/bar crawl in Abbotsford and stumbling drunk back to my apartment and watching Clone High and How I Met Your Mother. He is also planning on hitting on my French guest who is coming down from Lyon, France for a few weeks. So I need ideas of what to do with her, fun outings and some such.
A little nervous for her trip down though. I'm so stressed and have no energy, I don't know how I am supposed to host for two weeks. I feel like I am going to be running around with my head chopped off and just might lose it. I love Noemie to death and am excited to see her again, I just don't know how to handle her visit.
I also went out with Layne last night, to see a movie and eat donuts. When I'm with him I always laugh so hard...he's infectious that way. We have an amazing friendship and I am so thankful I have him. He is super excited for doing a pub/bar crawl in Abbotsford and stumbling drunk back to my apartment and watching Clone High and How I Met Your Mother. He is also planning on hitting on my French guest who is coming down from Lyon, France for a few weeks. So I need ideas of what to do with her, fun outings and some such.
A little nervous for her trip down though. I'm so stressed and have no energy, I don't know how I am supposed to host for two weeks. I feel like I am going to be running around with my head chopped off and just might lose it. I love Noemie to death and am excited to see her again, I just don't know how to handle her visit.