why do we do this to ourselves
Ohman. Last night was the first in about 3 weeks that I managed to find my way into bed before 4:00 in the morning, and I must say, it was fabulous. Sleep is a truly amazing thing.
I've been rediculously busy lately. School is over in two and a half weeks -- what?! How is it possible that this year is nearly done? Not that I'm complaining... a lot of things and people are getting on my nerves in a big way... but it seems like this year has absolutely flown by. I can't believe I'm halfway done with college. I don't want to go out in to the real world; I really dig this whole four-classes-sleep-in-every-day thing. Also, partying every night is a plus. (P.S. you know it's getting close to the end of the year when we don't see anything wrong with partying on Tuesday nights). It's nice to have the end in sight though, only one more test and a presentation in comm 411, plus 3 finals, and I'm done... how odd.
I'm getting restless, I'm ready for a change ASAP. First step: get off this medication. Sleep more, dream less, wake up refreshed instead of exhausted. Second step: chop off hair. Dye it fun and exciting new colors. Quit being blonde for a few months (literally and figuratively). Third step: change of venue. Goodbye Tucson, hello Olympia. Fourth step: figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. Providence internship this summer should help with this step. Working at Red Robin not exactly desirable, yet altogether necessary. Hope I can get my old job back; not sure what I'm going to do if I can't. Fifth step: get my ass in shape. Lose weight for once instead of gaining it. No more bread. No more pasta. Limited baked potatoes, because eliminating them completely would be laughable. Start actually using the gym membership that I pay $22 for every month.
I don't know where I stand with a lot of people right now, and it's frustrating. Things with Scott continue to be troubling, i.e. he goes on a weekend trip to Phoenix for Torrance's birthday and doesn't bother mentioning it. Away messages, while entertaining, are not an excuse for not calling your ish-girlfriend when you disappear for no apparent reason. I have absolutely no idea what the two of us are going to do for the next three weeks and the following three months... but I don't have a good feeling about it. He's been in all my dreams lately in some fashion or another, and it freaks me out. Part of me wants him gone, but a bigger part just wants to hold onto him for dear life and never let go.
Econ homework can wait until tomorrow. I'm going to bed. (and I wonder why I'm getting a C in that class... yeah. Sweet.)
I've been rediculously busy lately. School is over in two and a half weeks -- what?! How is it possible that this year is nearly done? Not that I'm complaining... a lot of things and people are getting on my nerves in a big way... but it seems like this year has absolutely flown by. I can't believe I'm halfway done with college. I don't want to go out in to the real world; I really dig this whole four-classes-sleep-in-every-day thing. Also, partying every night is a plus. (P.S. you know it's getting close to the end of the year when we don't see anything wrong with partying on Tuesday nights). It's nice to have the end in sight though, only one more test and a presentation in comm 411, plus 3 finals, and I'm done... how odd.
I'm getting restless, I'm ready for a change ASAP. First step: get off this medication. Sleep more, dream less, wake up refreshed instead of exhausted. Second step: chop off hair. Dye it fun and exciting new colors. Quit being blonde for a few months (literally and figuratively). Third step: change of venue. Goodbye Tucson, hello Olympia. Fourth step: figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. Providence internship this summer should help with this step. Working at Red Robin not exactly desirable, yet altogether necessary. Hope I can get my old job back; not sure what I'm going to do if I can't. Fifth step: get my ass in shape. Lose weight for once instead of gaining it. No more bread. No more pasta. Limited baked potatoes, because eliminating them completely would be laughable. Start actually using the gym membership that I pay $22 for every month.
I don't know where I stand with a lot of people right now, and it's frustrating. Things with Scott continue to be troubling, i.e. he goes on a weekend trip to Phoenix for Torrance's birthday and doesn't bother mentioning it. Away messages, while entertaining, are not an excuse for not calling your ish-girlfriend when you disappear for no apparent reason. I have absolutely no idea what the two of us are going to do for the next three weeks and the following three months... but I don't have a good feeling about it. He's been in all my dreams lately in some fashion or another, and it freaks me out. Part of me wants him gone, but a bigger part just wants to hold onto him for dear life and never let go.
Econ homework can wait until tomorrow. I'm going to bed. (and I wonder why I'm getting a C in that class... yeah. Sweet.)