Well...
I hate work.
They say i'm "Not pulling my weight", how can they say that?! I work so hard. It kills me.
I try so hard.
So, so hard.
This hardly seems fair.
I don't want to go in tomorrow, I really don't.
Todays beens so hard, i've had to fake a smile nearly all day. Some parts of the day I was genuinly happy. But others i've been so down. I don't like to see my friends upset, but how can I help when they do it to themselves? I don't know what to do. I just want everyone to be happy. I need last summer back. I'm trying so hard not to cry right now. Everythings so terrible at the moment: Work; I think a lot of my friends don't like me; I'm still in heartache, which doesn't seem fair after so long; My family like me less each day, and I miss my dad thinking about it.
I just want things back the way they were.
I liked it the way it was.
That way.
Perfection possibly?
You know what... 've calmed down, just like that.
I hate my moods so much.
'Cause now it'll hot me when i try to sleep. And I won't be able to.
Mehhhh.
I forgot to mention Laura. We've just had a phone converstation for hours. She cheers me up. She is my rock, I really need to talk to her sometimes, because no matter what it is, she NEVER judges me, and always understands. She goes on holiday tomorrow... Thats such a bad timing.
Hugs&Kisses
~ Bexie
Oh yea, Christalla's party? I only have a few photos so far.
They say i'm "Not pulling my weight", how can they say that?! I work so hard. It kills me.
I try so hard.
So, so hard.
This hardly seems fair.
I don't want to go in tomorrow, I really don't.
Todays beens so hard, i've had to fake a smile nearly all day. Some parts of the day I was genuinly happy. But others i've been so down. I don't like to see my friends upset, but how can I help when they do it to themselves? I don't know what to do. I just want everyone to be happy. I need last summer back. I'm trying so hard not to cry right now. Everythings so terrible at the moment: Work; I think a lot of my friends don't like me; I'm still in heartache, which doesn't seem fair after so long; My family like me less each day, and I miss my dad thinking about it.
I just want things back the way they were.
I liked it the way it was.
That way.
Perfection possibly?
You know what... 've calmed down, just like that.
I hate my moods so much.
'Cause now it'll hot me when i try to sleep. And I won't be able to.
Mehhhh.
I forgot to mention Laura. We've just had a phone converstation for hours. She cheers me up. She is my rock, I really need to talk to her sometimes, because no matter what it is, she NEVER judges me, and always understands. She goes on holiday tomorrow... Thats such a bad timing.
Hugs&Kisses
~ Bexie
Oh yea, Christalla's party? I only have a few photos so far.