"Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right."
Hmmmmm...
I have a strage and uncomforting feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just put on a song i used to listen to in 2004, Behing These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson. It really brung back memories.
Wow.
Lots of memories.
I can relate to the lyrics so much now.
Haha, this feeling it strange. I get it when I think of old times I miss, its so sickening, but terrifyingly addictive.
Anywhooo, last night it was Christalla's birthday party. It was okay, some parts were amazing, others brought me down a lot. Overall it was pretty cool. I was pretty much happy, but I missed a certain someone a lot =/. I drank quite a bit, but not as much as I intended to... I wanted to forget again.
Just once...
Meh.
Today has been a bit all over the place.
I feel so close to Krysi again, but I know in a second it could all slip. I'm stick of this fragility i'm trapped in. Gah, I don't even know if fragility is a word! If i'm making up words i've definiatly lost it. I thoughtn I was loosing it again today, I did that thing I used to, where I struggle to catch my breathe, and feel really sick, and start to hyperventilate instead of cry. Its worried me. I got that feeling as well.
The one where I want to sleep for a very long time.
I really don't feel like i'm in a safe place right now, like my train has stopped at a station, where I have to switch trains, but theres dangerous people or things around, that could hurt me, and destoy me. But i'm tryong to just get to the right train.
I think i'm okay.
But i'm not sure...?
I don't know if I can handle tomorrow.
Hugs&Kisses
~ Bexie
I have a strage and uncomforting feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just put on a song i used to listen to in 2004, Behing These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson. It really brung back memories.
Wow.
Lots of memories.
I can relate to the lyrics so much now.
Haha, this feeling it strange. I get it when I think of old times I miss, its so sickening, but terrifyingly addictive.
Anywhooo, last night it was Christalla's birthday party. It was okay, some parts were amazing, others brought me down a lot. Overall it was pretty cool. I was pretty much happy, but I missed a certain someone a lot =/. I drank quite a bit, but not as much as I intended to... I wanted to forget again.
Just once...
Meh.
Today has been a bit all over the place.
I feel so close to Krysi again, but I know in a second it could all slip. I'm stick of this fragility i'm trapped in. Gah, I don't even know if fragility is a word! If i'm making up words i've definiatly lost it. I thoughtn I was loosing it again today, I did that thing I used to, where I struggle to catch my breathe, and feel really sick, and start to hyperventilate instead of cry. Its worried me. I got that feeling as well.
The one where I want to sleep for a very long time.
I really don't feel like i'm in a safe place right now, like my train has stopped at a station, where I have to switch trains, but theres dangerous people or things around, that could hurt me, and destoy me. But i'm tryong to just get to the right train.
I think i'm okay.
But i'm not sure...?
I don't know if I can handle tomorrow.
Hugs&Kisses
~ Bexie