Desire Defying Destiny (4/?)
Title: Desire Defying Destiny (4?)
Author: Bex81385
Pairing: Chuck/Blair
Rating: PG13
Word Count:2875
Spoilers: Everything up to "A Thin Line Between Chuck and Nate" happened, anything after that is purely coincidental. I’m spoiler free and happy that way.
Summary: Blair and Chuck deal with the aftermath of their actions in "A Thin Line Between Chuck and Nate."
Chapter Four: "I Didn’t Betray You"
It was in instant Nate mused. He’d reached out to pull her from the path of a kamikaze bike messenger, his fingers firmly wrapped around her hand. Central Park was crowded so he’d allowed his hand to stay, holding onto hers, just long enough to prove to himself he didn’t need Blair Waldorf. Once he saw the blush on Jenny’s cheeks, he released her. Giving Jenny the wrong idea wasn’t part of his game plan.
He was surprised, although he didn’t know why, when the picture of him holding Jenny’s hand showed up in every inbox on the Upper East Side, and on the Gossip Girl website. It was his own fault, he knew that. The same reason he had allowed the hand holding to occur was the same reason he was caught doing it.
The first time he saw the picture he smiled and hoped that Blair had seen it and was upset. It was only fair, given how upset he was when he found out about her and Chuck. He knew Gossip Girl’s blurb alone would be enough to make Blair’s blood boil, and for an instant he was pleased with the invasion of privacy.
The second time he saw the picture; however, he thought of Jenny. He scolded himself for allowing his first thoughts to be of Blair and not of Jenny and her feelings. He knew that she and Blair were no longer friends, although he guessed they never really were even from the start, but he was worried that Blair would see the picture as a declaration of war.
He had immediately called Jenny and once he was reassured that Blair hadn’t uttered a peep about the picture to anyone, not even Serena according to Dan, he told her he’d call her later and hung up. His thoughts led straight back to Blair.
He couldn’t believe that she hadn’t said a thing about him holding another girl’s hand in public. She, who claimed she was deeply in love with him, didn’t care at all. No longer had he been pleased with Gossip Girl’s informants.
Now, days later, he was still livid that she didn’t care. If that wasn’t bad enough, he knew, thanks again to Gossip Girl, that she was in fact moping around the city. It just had nothing to do with him. It was all about Chuck, his ex-best friend.
He flopped down on his bed, turned his iPod on and tried to drown out his thoughts. He was finding that task more taxing than he’d anticipated. There were just too many things he had on his mind. His father’s trip to rehab should have taken precedence but no, no matter what, his thoughts always inevitably led back to Blair and Chuck.
He couldn’t fathom how two of the most important people in his life could betray him they way they had. Blair was almost understandable, he hadn’t been the perfect boyfriend in a long time, but Chuck was a different story.
Chuck knew everything. Chuck had been the one who talked Nate into refusing to get back together with Blair when his parents wanted him to. Chuck had been the one who talked Nate out of giving Blair the engagement ring. Chuck had been the one who manipulated the situation and let Nate attack Carter, ruining Blair’s cotillion. And when Nate decided he really did want Blair back, Chuck knew that too. Chuck knew and instead of doing the honorable thing and backing off, he made sure that all Blair could see was Nate failing to meet up to her expectations.
That was at least until the night of cotillion. Nate smiled to himself as the memory of that night came back to him. Even with all the behind-the-scenes information and plotting Chuck had available to himself, even after Nate had been asked to leave, he still hadn’t been able to hold onto Blair. She still went running back to him. Plus, the pained face Chuck was making as Chuck watched him pull Blair through a door, her lips attached to his neck, didn’t hurt either.
However, his smile was brief and quickly melted into a scowl when he remembered the rest of the night. It hadn’t occurred to him that night, looking back now it was obvious, that she wasn’t a virgin any longer. It had never crossed his mind that she had been sleeping with anyone else, let alone his best friend.
He remembered the way he reassured her he wouldn’t hurt her, the delicate way he’d touched her trying to keep that promise. He told her over and over again that night that he loved her, whether the words were whispered in hushed, ecstasy-filled tones or quietly in her ear as she drifted off to sleep afterwards. That was the way he wanted to remember his first time with Blair.
Now, he couldn’t do anything but remember the way she moved, expertly, and not as if it was her first time. He couldn’t help but remember the way her face didn’t indicate an ounce of pain throughout the entire experience.
He was pulled from his thoughts by his ringing phone. He had never been more grateful for a phone to ring until he looked at the caller id. Chuck. He hit the ignore button on his cell and turned his iPod up louder. Chuck really needed to stop calling him. He was in no way ready to talk to him again, and he doubted he would be for a long while. He ignored his phone as it alerted him to a new text message and got up. He needed to get out of his house and do something, anything to take his mind off of Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass. He grabbed his phone bypassing the option to enter his inbox and dialed a number he was quickly becoming familiar with. "Hey, are you busy?" he asked when the other end was picked up. "Great, you want to meet me... about half an hour sounds fine... I’ll see you there."
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Despite his advice to Serena, Dan was beginning to think Blair wasn’t going to fine with time. For the last hour, he had been walking around his father’s gallery with Vanessa, and she’d been talking the entire time. He could see her lips moving but he had no clue what she was talking about, he was too lost in his own thoughts.
It hadn’t taken too long after he started seeing Serena for him to realize that whatever affected Blair affected Serena. When Blair was upset, Serena was too. It was just one more thing he loved about Serena.
"Are you even listening to me?" Vanessa snapped angrily, ripping Dan out of his thoughts
"I’m sorry." He apologized genuinely sorry. "What were we talking about?"
Vanessa rolled her eyes. "I was talking about this piece your mom painted last month, you, however, were spaced out. What’s the deal Dan? You’ve been a total zombie since you got that text message about Blair."
Dan sighed. He knew Vanessa wasn’t Blair’s biggest fan, and honestly he understood why, but Blair was Serena’s best friend and if he was really honest with himself, he had a soft spot for her as well. "I’m just worried about her." he admitted.
Vanessa sighed. "I don’t understand why. It’s Blair Waldorf, even when she’s the least popular girl in school, she’s still a Waldorf. She’ll pull though and be right back on top."
Dan shook his head. "I don’t think it’s that easy."
Vanessa shrugged. "Sure it is."
Dan looked at her shocked. "You don’t understand, my little sister played an instrumental role in bringing Blair down."
"And Jenny should feel responsible for it, not you." Vanessa pointed out tersely. She could really care less about Blair Waldorf’s feelings. She’d gotten herself into this mess. She’d already helped Blair hide her affair once, she couldn’t help but think this was one secret that was meant to be exposed.
Dan nodded. "She should, but she doesn’t. She’s pod Jenny."
Vanessa sighed. "I’m supposed to have dinner with her tonight, I’ll talk to her, try and knock some sense into..." she started only to interrupted by the chime of her cell phone. "Text message." she said to Dan before opening it. ‘Can’t make dinner... sorry... something came up. -J’ Vanessa sighed and closed the phone. "Apparently I’m not having dinner with Jenny. Something came up."
Dan rolled his eyes. "Understandable, her clone friends probably want her to go somewhere way out of her price range or it has to do with Nate."
"Dan..."
Dan sighed. "Like I said, she’s pod Jenny." he said grumpily before pulling Vanessa out of the gallery. "Let’s go get something to eat."
xoxoxoxoxoxo
It was well into the night before Jenny came home and Dan was beyond angry. Jenny had never been this flaky until she started hanging out with those girls. When she had plans she kept them, never once could he remember Jenny blowing someone off for a different person. It hadn’t helped matters that when Serena had finally called him, she’d informed him that she was spending her evening with Blair, who was practically mute since her encounter with Jenny and Co. in Tiffany’s. By the time she finally walked in the loft, well after midnight, he’d had time to let his annoyance grow into something he rarely experienced with Jenny. He was furious.
"Where have you been Jenny?" He’d been sitting on the couch for the last two hours waiting on her. She was lucky their dad was on a date because it was a school night and it was past her curfew. This was another thing Jenny hadn’t done until now.
Jenny shrugged. "Out with a friend, Dad."
"Which friend?" he asked even though he already knew the answer. He’d already seen the picture of Nate and Jenny in some restaurant on Gossip Girl.
Jenny sighed. "Nate."
Dan rolled his eyes and stood up to walk towards her. "This thing with Blair really doesn’t bother you a bit does it?" He didn’t know when his sweet and innocent sister had turned into the kind of person he hated.
Jenny rolled her eyes and walked briskly into the kitchen. She pulled out a carton of juice and poured herself a glass before turning her attention to Dan. "Why would it?"
"The only reason Nate is anywhere near you right now is because you told him about Blair. Now, I know she used you, but you used to care about her. It was your rash action that led to this..."
"You know Dan, I understand Serena being worried about Blair, but not you." she interrupted, "I mean she’s not really your friend. Blair Waldorf only cares about herself." Jenny snapped coolly then sipped her juice.
"Is that what you’ve told yourself Jenny? That Blair deserved it because she’s a bitch with no real feelings? Does that make what you did to her easier to stomach?"
Jenny glared over her orange juice. "What I did? What about what she did? She treated me horribly."
"You let her. You let them all walk all over you and you didn’t say a word." Dan pointed out. "And what you did..."
"I didn’t do anything wrong!" Jenny yelled before slamming her glass down on the counter, "It’s not like I lied."
Dan sighed disapprovingly. "Come on Jen, you’re smarter than this!" he barked angrily "You don’t actually think you helped anyone by repeating what you eavesdropped on, do you?"
"I helped Nate! He deserved to know the truth!"
Dan shook his head. "No Jenny, you didn’t help him. You think that because you walked through Central Park and he held your hand, or because he took you to dinner at some fancy restaurant that he’s all better now. You're not a magic band-aid. You cost him his best friend..."
"Some best friend Chuck is." she huffed, "He slept with Blair!"
"While her and Nate were broken up. Never once while he was with her. Nate has no right to be as angry with Blair and Chuck as he is. Especially considering what he did with Serena, while he was actually dating Blair."
Jenny rolled her eyes.
"And you cost him his girlfriend." Dan continued, "They were together now and they were fine, the past finally behind them. Both of them were ready to move on."
"Oh please..."
"They’ve been together since kindergarten! You’re not going to replace her, Jenny!"
Jenny cut her eyes angrily at Dan. "Excuse me?"
"You may have all those girls on the steps of the Met fooled, but you’re not Blair Waldorf. You’re never going to be Blair Waldorf. The sooner you realize that the better, because I don’t like this girl you’re turning into. She’s cruel and vindictive." Dan snapped before turning on his heel and going to bed, slamming his door behind him.
Jenny sighed sadly and put her glass in the sink before doing the same.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Of all the people Nate expected to see sitting on his couch when he got back from dropping Jenny off, Chuck wasn’t one of them. "What are you doing here?" he sniped.
"Your mom let me in." Chuck answered.
Nate rolled his eyes. "Do you and your girlfriend both have the same defect or something?" he snapped, "I didn’t ask how you got in, I asked what you were doing here," he said echoing the same answer he’d given Blair a week ago.
Chuck sighed. "You won’t take my calls. You won’t return my texts. I wanted to talk to you. Showing up here seemed like the only way."
Nate shrugged. "I don’t care. Please leave."
Chuck shook his head. "You don’t just get to kick me out of your life. We’ve been friends since kindergarten, Nathaniel." Chuck pleaded, realizing that maybe this hadn’t been such a good idea.
"Which only makes your betrayal hurt worse."
"I didn’t betray you!" Chuck yelled "You weren’t with her!"
"You knew I wanted her back!" Nate yelled back.
Chuck ran a hand through his hair angrily. "No, you didn’t. At least not when it all started. You were only taking her back because your parents were forcing you to. She deserved better than that!"
"Defending Blair is not helping your cause here, Chuck." Nate pointed out spitefully, "As far as deserving better, do you really think you were better for her than I was. She loves me, not you."
"And you love Serena!"
"No..."
"You do, you love Serena, not Blair! She deserved someone who didn’t want her to be Serena." Chuck snapped "And she knew it. You made her feel inadequate. She couldn’t be comfortable in her own skin because of you!" Despite everything he was trying to accomplish here in gaining Nate back, he couldn’t help but defend Blair. "But none of that matters anymore, Nathaniel. I gave her up, I’m not with her, I’m not going to be with her. You’re too important to me..."
"But I wasn’t important enough to you when you were sleeping with my girlfriend!" Nate shouted.
"She wasn’t your girlfriend!" Chuck demanded "When Blair and I started this thing she was single, and she was hurting. We were both confused by what we were feeling."
"Feeling?" Nate snapped skeptically, "How were you confused by what you were feeling? You have no feelings!"
"Nathaniel..." Chuck said softly. He couldn’t believe that his best friend was talking to him the way he was.
"Get out Chuck. I told you already, you and me, we’re done. I want nothing more to do with you, or Blair. So really, if you’re holding back on my account don’t bother. It won’t score you any points."
"Nathaniel..." Chuck tried again
"But before you run off to Blair, your heart in your hand, you should know that the day I found out, she came to me. She begged me to take her back. She called you a mistake. She told me she loved me. But I don’t know, I’ve made it perfectly clear I’m not taking her back, so she might just have you again. At least until someone better comes along, and honestly Chuck, who isn’t better than you." Nate said cruelly. "I’m going to bed, show yourself out." He added coolly before heading up the stairs leaving Chuck behind.
Chuck stood, unable to move from his spot in the living room. He watched Nate walk up the stairs and didn’t turn away until he was out of eyesight. He’d never known Nate to be so cold and calculated. He finally moved towards the door and left the Archibald house. For the first time since Chuck could remember, he left hating Nate.
Spotted: C leaving N’s house late in the PM... or more accurately early in the AM... looking despondent and even a tad bit angry. What’s the matter C? Didn’t get what you came for? Don’t worry. N’s spending so much time with J now, maybe he’ll forget all about that mess with B and you can go back to being BFF’s. Then again, if the look on your face is any indication, maybe you shouldn’t hold your breath. You know you love me... XOXO... Gossip Girl...
Author: Bex81385
Pairing: Chuck/Blair
Rating: PG13
Word Count:2875
Spoilers: Everything up to "A Thin Line Between Chuck and Nate" happened, anything after that is purely coincidental. I’m spoiler free and happy that way.
Summary: Blair and Chuck deal with the aftermath of their actions in "A Thin Line Between Chuck and Nate."
Chapter Four: "I Didn’t Betray You"
It was in instant Nate mused. He’d reached out to pull her from the path of a kamikaze bike messenger, his fingers firmly wrapped around her hand. Central Park was crowded so he’d allowed his hand to stay, holding onto hers, just long enough to prove to himself he didn’t need Blair Waldorf. Once he saw the blush on Jenny’s cheeks, he released her. Giving Jenny the wrong idea wasn’t part of his game plan.
He was surprised, although he didn’t know why, when the picture of him holding Jenny’s hand showed up in every inbox on the Upper East Side, and on the Gossip Girl website. It was his own fault, he knew that. The same reason he had allowed the hand holding to occur was the same reason he was caught doing it.
The first time he saw the picture he smiled and hoped that Blair had seen it and was upset. It was only fair, given how upset he was when he found out about her and Chuck. He knew Gossip Girl’s blurb alone would be enough to make Blair’s blood boil, and for an instant he was pleased with the invasion of privacy.
The second time he saw the picture; however, he thought of Jenny. He scolded himself for allowing his first thoughts to be of Blair and not of Jenny and her feelings. He knew that she and Blair were no longer friends, although he guessed they never really were even from the start, but he was worried that Blair would see the picture as a declaration of war.
He had immediately called Jenny and once he was reassured that Blair hadn’t uttered a peep about the picture to anyone, not even Serena according to Dan, he told her he’d call her later and hung up. His thoughts led straight back to Blair.
He couldn’t believe that she hadn’t said a thing about him holding another girl’s hand in public. She, who claimed she was deeply in love with him, didn’t care at all. No longer had he been pleased with Gossip Girl’s informants.
Now, days later, he was still livid that she didn’t care. If that wasn’t bad enough, he knew, thanks again to Gossip Girl, that she was in fact moping around the city. It just had nothing to do with him. It was all about Chuck, his ex-best friend.
He flopped down on his bed, turned his iPod on and tried to drown out his thoughts. He was finding that task more taxing than he’d anticipated. There were just too many things he had on his mind. His father’s trip to rehab should have taken precedence but no, no matter what, his thoughts always inevitably led back to Blair and Chuck.
He couldn’t fathom how two of the most important people in his life could betray him they way they had. Blair was almost understandable, he hadn’t been the perfect boyfriend in a long time, but Chuck was a different story.
Chuck knew everything. Chuck had been the one who talked Nate into refusing to get back together with Blair when his parents wanted him to. Chuck had been the one who talked Nate out of giving Blair the engagement ring. Chuck had been the one who manipulated the situation and let Nate attack Carter, ruining Blair’s cotillion. And when Nate decided he really did want Blair back, Chuck knew that too. Chuck knew and instead of doing the honorable thing and backing off, he made sure that all Blair could see was Nate failing to meet up to her expectations.
That was at least until the night of cotillion. Nate smiled to himself as the memory of that night came back to him. Even with all the behind-the-scenes information and plotting Chuck had available to himself, even after Nate had been asked to leave, he still hadn’t been able to hold onto Blair. She still went running back to him. Plus, the pained face Chuck was making as Chuck watched him pull Blair through a door, her lips attached to his neck, didn’t hurt either.
However, his smile was brief and quickly melted into a scowl when he remembered the rest of the night. It hadn’t occurred to him that night, looking back now it was obvious, that she wasn’t a virgin any longer. It had never crossed his mind that she had been sleeping with anyone else, let alone his best friend.
He remembered the way he reassured her he wouldn’t hurt her, the delicate way he’d touched her trying to keep that promise. He told her over and over again that night that he loved her, whether the words were whispered in hushed, ecstasy-filled tones or quietly in her ear as she drifted off to sleep afterwards. That was the way he wanted to remember his first time with Blair.
Now, he couldn’t do anything but remember the way she moved, expertly, and not as if it was her first time. He couldn’t help but remember the way her face didn’t indicate an ounce of pain throughout the entire experience.
He was pulled from his thoughts by his ringing phone. He had never been more grateful for a phone to ring until he looked at the caller id. Chuck. He hit the ignore button on his cell and turned his iPod up louder. Chuck really needed to stop calling him. He was in no way ready to talk to him again, and he doubted he would be for a long while. He ignored his phone as it alerted him to a new text message and got up. He needed to get out of his house and do something, anything to take his mind off of Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass. He grabbed his phone bypassing the option to enter his inbox and dialed a number he was quickly becoming familiar with. "Hey, are you busy?" he asked when the other end was picked up. "Great, you want to meet me... about half an hour sounds fine... I’ll see you there."
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Despite his advice to Serena, Dan was beginning to think Blair wasn’t going to fine with time. For the last hour, he had been walking around his father’s gallery with Vanessa, and she’d been talking the entire time. He could see her lips moving but he had no clue what she was talking about, he was too lost in his own thoughts.
It hadn’t taken too long after he started seeing Serena for him to realize that whatever affected Blair affected Serena. When Blair was upset, Serena was too. It was just one more thing he loved about Serena.
"Are you even listening to me?" Vanessa snapped angrily, ripping Dan out of his thoughts
"I’m sorry." He apologized genuinely sorry. "What were we talking about?"
Vanessa rolled her eyes. "I was talking about this piece your mom painted last month, you, however, were spaced out. What’s the deal Dan? You’ve been a total zombie since you got that text message about Blair."
Dan sighed. He knew Vanessa wasn’t Blair’s biggest fan, and honestly he understood why, but Blair was Serena’s best friend and if he was really honest with himself, he had a soft spot for her as well. "I’m just worried about her." he admitted.
Vanessa sighed. "I don’t understand why. It’s Blair Waldorf, even when she’s the least popular girl in school, she’s still a Waldorf. She’ll pull though and be right back on top."
Dan shook his head. "I don’t think it’s that easy."
Vanessa shrugged. "Sure it is."
Dan looked at her shocked. "You don’t understand, my little sister played an instrumental role in bringing Blair down."
"And Jenny should feel responsible for it, not you." Vanessa pointed out tersely. She could really care less about Blair Waldorf’s feelings. She’d gotten herself into this mess. She’d already helped Blair hide her affair once, she couldn’t help but think this was one secret that was meant to be exposed.
Dan nodded. "She should, but she doesn’t. She’s pod Jenny."
Vanessa sighed. "I’m supposed to have dinner with her tonight, I’ll talk to her, try and knock some sense into..." she started only to interrupted by the chime of her cell phone. "Text message." she said to Dan before opening it. ‘Can’t make dinner... sorry... something came up. -J’ Vanessa sighed and closed the phone. "Apparently I’m not having dinner with Jenny. Something came up."
Dan rolled his eyes. "Understandable, her clone friends probably want her to go somewhere way out of her price range or it has to do with Nate."
"Dan..."
Dan sighed. "Like I said, she’s pod Jenny." he said grumpily before pulling Vanessa out of the gallery. "Let’s go get something to eat."
xoxoxoxoxoxo
It was well into the night before Jenny came home and Dan was beyond angry. Jenny had never been this flaky until she started hanging out with those girls. When she had plans she kept them, never once could he remember Jenny blowing someone off for a different person. It hadn’t helped matters that when Serena had finally called him, she’d informed him that she was spending her evening with Blair, who was practically mute since her encounter with Jenny and Co. in Tiffany’s. By the time she finally walked in the loft, well after midnight, he’d had time to let his annoyance grow into something he rarely experienced with Jenny. He was furious.
"Where have you been Jenny?" He’d been sitting on the couch for the last two hours waiting on her. She was lucky their dad was on a date because it was a school night and it was past her curfew. This was another thing Jenny hadn’t done until now.
Jenny shrugged. "Out with a friend, Dad."
"Which friend?" he asked even though he already knew the answer. He’d already seen the picture of Nate and Jenny in some restaurant on Gossip Girl.
Jenny sighed. "Nate."
Dan rolled his eyes and stood up to walk towards her. "This thing with Blair really doesn’t bother you a bit does it?" He didn’t know when his sweet and innocent sister had turned into the kind of person he hated.
Jenny rolled her eyes and walked briskly into the kitchen. She pulled out a carton of juice and poured herself a glass before turning her attention to Dan. "Why would it?"
"The only reason Nate is anywhere near you right now is because you told him about Blair. Now, I know she used you, but you used to care about her. It was your rash action that led to this..."
"You know Dan, I understand Serena being worried about Blair, but not you." she interrupted, "I mean she’s not really your friend. Blair Waldorf only cares about herself." Jenny snapped coolly then sipped her juice.
"Is that what you’ve told yourself Jenny? That Blair deserved it because she’s a bitch with no real feelings? Does that make what you did to her easier to stomach?"
Jenny glared over her orange juice. "What I did? What about what she did? She treated me horribly."
"You let her. You let them all walk all over you and you didn’t say a word." Dan pointed out. "And what you did..."
"I didn’t do anything wrong!" Jenny yelled before slamming her glass down on the counter, "It’s not like I lied."
Dan sighed disapprovingly. "Come on Jen, you’re smarter than this!" he barked angrily "You don’t actually think you helped anyone by repeating what you eavesdropped on, do you?"
"I helped Nate! He deserved to know the truth!"
Dan shook his head. "No Jenny, you didn’t help him. You think that because you walked through Central Park and he held your hand, or because he took you to dinner at some fancy restaurant that he’s all better now. You're not a magic band-aid. You cost him his best friend..."
"Some best friend Chuck is." she huffed, "He slept with Blair!"
"While her and Nate were broken up. Never once while he was with her. Nate has no right to be as angry with Blair and Chuck as he is. Especially considering what he did with Serena, while he was actually dating Blair."
Jenny rolled her eyes.
"And you cost him his girlfriend." Dan continued, "They were together now and they were fine, the past finally behind them. Both of them were ready to move on."
"Oh please..."
"They’ve been together since kindergarten! You’re not going to replace her, Jenny!"
Jenny cut her eyes angrily at Dan. "Excuse me?"
"You may have all those girls on the steps of the Met fooled, but you’re not Blair Waldorf. You’re never going to be Blair Waldorf. The sooner you realize that the better, because I don’t like this girl you’re turning into. She’s cruel and vindictive." Dan snapped before turning on his heel and going to bed, slamming his door behind him.
Jenny sighed sadly and put her glass in the sink before doing the same.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Of all the people Nate expected to see sitting on his couch when he got back from dropping Jenny off, Chuck wasn’t one of them. "What are you doing here?" he sniped.
"Your mom let me in." Chuck answered.
Nate rolled his eyes. "Do you and your girlfriend both have the same defect or something?" he snapped, "I didn’t ask how you got in, I asked what you were doing here," he said echoing the same answer he’d given Blair a week ago.
Chuck sighed. "You won’t take my calls. You won’t return my texts. I wanted to talk to you. Showing up here seemed like the only way."
Nate shrugged. "I don’t care. Please leave."
Chuck shook his head. "You don’t just get to kick me out of your life. We’ve been friends since kindergarten, Nathaniel." Chuck pleaded, realizing that maybe this hadn’t been such a good idea.
"Which only makes your betrayal hurt worse."
"I didn’t betray you!" Chuck yelled "You weren’t with her!"
"You knew I wanted her back!" Nate yelled back.
Chuck ran a hand through his hair angrily. "No, you didn’t. At least not when it all started. You were only taking her back because your parents were forcing you to. She deserved better than that!"
"Defending Blair is not helping your cause here, Chuck." Nate pointed out spitefully, "As far as deserving better, do you really think you were better for her than I was. She loves me, not you."
"And you love Serena!"
"No..."
"You do, you love Serena, not Blair! She deserved someone who didn’t want her to be Serena." Chuck snapped "And she knew it. You made her feel inadequate. She couldn’t be comfortable in her own skin because of you!" Despite everything he was trying to accomplish here in gaining Nate back, he couldn’t help but defend Blair. "But none of that matters anymore, Nathaniel. I gave her up, I’m not with her, I’m not going to be with her. You’re too important to me..."
"But I wasn’t important enough to you when you were sleeping with my girlfriend!" Nate shouted.
"She wasn’t your girlfriend!" Chuck demanded "When Blair and I started this thing she was single, and she was hurting. We were both confused by what we were feeling."
"Feeling?" Nate snapped skeptically, "How were you confused by what you were feeling? You have no feelings!"
"Nathaniel..." Chuck said softly. He couldn’t believe that his best friend was talking to him the way he was.
"Get out Chuck. I told you already, you and me, we’re done. I want nothing more to do with you, or Blair. So really, if you’re holding back on my account don’t bother. It won’t score you any points."
"Nathaniel..." Chuck tried again
"But before you run off to Blair, your heart in your hand, you should know that the day I found out, she came to me. She begged me to take her back. She called you a mistake. She told me she loved me. But I don’t know, I’ve made it perfectly clear I’m not taking her back, so she might just have you again. At least until someone better comes along, and honestly Chuck, who isn’t better than you." Nate said cruelly. "I’m going to bed, show yourself out." He added coolly before heading up the stairs leaving Chuck behind.
Chuck stood, unable to move from his spot in the living room. He watched Nate walk up the stairs and didn’t turn away until he was out of eyesight. He’d never known Nate to be so cold and calculated. He finally moved towards the door and left the Archibald house. For the first time since Chuck could remember, he left hating Nate.
Spotted: C leaving N’s house late in the PM... or more accurately early in the AM... looking despondent and even a tad bit angry. What’s the matter C? Didn’t get what you came for? Don’t worry. N’s spending so much time with J now, maybe he’ll forget all about that mess with B and you can go back to being BFF’s. Then again, if the look on your face is any indication, maybe you shouldn’t hold your breath. You know you love me... XOXO... Gossip Girl...