every thing happens for a reason...
all of us have heard this phrase at one moment of our life or another. i was reading an lj friend's journal this morning, and somehow these words got stuck on my mind... i realized i was not alone in my misery. most of my life, i've been quiet, but i just can't keep all the anger hidden anymore.
i don't know why some people are just so good at making other people's lives miserable. i admit that i'm not a perfect person as a whole, but reminiscing 20 years of my life, i realized that everything i did in my life was done to please every one else. i love my parents, i love them so much and i'd do every thing for them. i want them to always feel proud and happy for me. they had high expectations for me, but i understood that they only want the best for me. i know their sacrifices and how they worked hard to give their children the best education possible. and in return, i want to do everything i can to make them happy. i don't feel that it's an obligation of a child to take care of her parents, but that's the way love works. i want to be there for them till they're old, and i assured them i'll never ever forget all the things they taught me.
so, why am i saying these now? because i can feel they're sad and worried for me... because, believe it or not, there are really selfish people in this world who doesn't want to see anybody else happy. to the extent, that they'll call up my parents and say made-up stories which would really worry parents for a reason. why do you even have to make such a big deal out of my life anyway? it's not as if i'm 15 yrs. old that thinking about marriage should have me condemned for life. my parents have no problem about me getting married in the near future, so what the hell is your problem???? i'm 24, i've dreamed of my perfect wedding a couple of times (i think every girl does?), and you go around with your friends, talking lies about me behind my back. i don't think i'm the one who's immature in this aspect, but you are!!! i'm trying to keep whatever respect i have left for you, but if you give anymore problems to my family, i won't be able to control myself anymore. i just want you to be out of my life. i won't give a damn about you till the day i die. forgive and forget. oh, how i wish i could do that after all you've done.
good thing though, no matter how much you try to ruin my life, why is it that you don't seem to be succeeding? all the things you've been doing will come back to you, one way or another. so, stop disturbing my parents and solve your family problem first, before you even try getting into my life. after all the lies you said, you just showed how immature you really are. remove the mask, and show your real face, will you? i pity you.
i don't know why some people are just so good at making other people's lives miserable. i admit that i'm not a perfect person as a whole, but reminiscing 20 years of my life, i realized that everything i did in my life was done to please every one else. i love my parents, i love them so much and i'd do every thing for them. i want them to always feel proud and happy for me. they had high expectations for me, but i understood that they only want the best for me. i know their sacrifices and how they worked hard to give their children the best education possible. and in return, i want to do everything i can to make them happy. i don't feel that it's an obligation of a child to take care of her parents, but that's the way love works. i want to be there for them till they're old, and i assured them i'll never ever forget all the things they taught me.
so, why am i saying these now? because i can feel they're sad and worried for me... because, believe it or not, there are really selfish people in this world who doesn't want to see anybody else happy. to the extent, that they'll call up my parents and say made-up stories which would really worry parents for a reason. why do you even have to make such a big deal out of my life anyway? it's not as if i'm 15 yrs. old that thinking about marriage should have me condemned for life. my parents have no problem about me getting married in the near future, so what the hell is your problem???? i'm 24, i've dreamed of my perfect wedding a couple of times (i think every girl does?), and you go around with your friends, talking lies about me behind my back. i don't think i'm the one who's immature in this aspect, but you are!!! i'm trying to keep whatever respect i have left for you, but if you give anymore problems to my family, i won't be able to control myself anymore. i just want you to be out of my life. i won't give a damn about you till the day i die. forgive and forget. oh, how i wish i could do that after all you've done.
good thing though, no matter how much you try to ruin my life, why is it that you don't seem to be succeeding? all the things you've been doing will come back to you, one way or another. so, stop disturbing my parents and solve your family problem first, before you even try getting into my life. after all the lies you said, you just showed how immature you really are. remove the mask, and show your real face, will you? i pity you.