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alright so tonight was %100 shitty. i got mad at everybody for a different reason tonight and im still mad at each and every one of thjem. shit like this keeps happening to me and the only solution i have is to run away.... move away to some place outside of driving distance so that I can start all over and something else. a new stephanie sousa. with none of the bullshit i will have left behind the pacific northwest. i would kill for this right now. i HATE with my life how every being i have a tie to has to take a part of my stength in one way or another on a daily basis. i just cant take this shit anymore and to be honest for the last 3 weeks i have been grazing a razor over my wrists wishing for the courage to press down with all my strangth and die because this wholw shit..... this whole life of mine just isnt working out the way it needs to.