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Being stuck in the hospital is not fun.
I have one tube coming out of my chest that is inserted in the space around my heart to suction out all of the fluid that has accumulated there since my surgery.
There is another tube coming out of my upper thigh, my "groin", where the doctors had to get at a major artery to connect the heart/lung machine so they could filter into my blood. When they did that, they created an abscess, and so the tube is now coming out of there draining the abscess fluid.
Every time I stand up, fluid runs down my leg because the tube doesn't suction right, so every time I stand up, it looks like I am just standing there letting pee drizzle all down my leg.
It's embarrassing and demeaning.
Every time I ask for pain medication, , the nurses try to sucker me into having a lesser pain med...like...they'll give me the morphine by IV, but the oxycodone, and oxycontin they give me in pills, and I don't feel that anything makes a difference except the morphine, and even then, it's a small relaxation.
I have been on Lasix, which has been explained to me as a medication that will take away water weight from the body. They've been giving that to me by IV and pill, 3 or so times a day.
I lost 13 pounds in a day. Wanna know what that is? 7 liters.
I peed 7 liters yesterday...in a bedpan. Do you know what it's like to have to call a nurse every 3 minutes for her to put a bedpan under you so you can pee, because that same nurse keeps giving you medication to make you pee?!
I PEED 7 LITERS YESTERDAY!
Think about that in a real sense. A 2 liter bottle of soda...one you'd have in your fridge?
I peed three and a half of those.
Peeing that 7 liters made me lose 13 pounds of weight off of my body.
But is that something really celebratory? No, because I have gained 20 or so pounds in actual water weight since the surgery anyways, so I am only losing what the hospital gave me.
That sucks.
Being here sucks.
I have one tube coming out of my chest that is inserted in the space around my heart to suction out all of the fluid that has accumulated there since my surgery.
There is another tube coming out of my upper thigh, my "groin", where the doctors had to get at a major artery to connect the heart/lung machine so they could filter into my blood. When they did that, they created an abscess, and so the tube is now coming out of there draining the abscess fluid.
Every time I stand up, fluid runs down my leg because the tube doesn't suction right, so every time I stand up, it looks like I am just standing there letting pee drizzle all down my leg.
It's embarrassing and demeaning.
Every time I ask for pain medication, , the nurses try to sucker me into having a lesser pain med...like...they'll give me the morphine by IV, but the oxycodone, and oxycontin they give me in pills, and I don't feel that anything makes a difference except the morphine, and even then, it's a small relaxation.
I have been on Lasix, which has been explained to me as a medication that will take away water weight from the body. They've been giving that to me by IV and pill, 3 or so times a day.
I lost 13 pounds in a day. Wanna know what that is? 7 liters.
I peed 7 liters yesterday...in a bedpan. Do you know what it's like to have to call a nurse every 3 minutes for her to put a bedpan under you so you can pee, because that same nurse keeps giving you medication to make you pee?!
I PEED 7 LITERS YESTERDAY!
Think about that in a real sense. A 2 liter bottle of soda...one you'd have in your fridge?
I peed three and a half of those.
Peeing that 7 liters made me lose 13 pounds of weight off of my body.
But is that something really celebratory? No, because I have gained 20 or so pounds in actual water weight since the surgery anyways, so I am only losing what the hospital gave me.
That sucks.
Being here sucks.