Never ending
It's 12:15 am and I can't sleep. Even though it's techhnically not the 17th anymore my heart is still hurting. I am sitting here crying and crying and I can't even run into the bedroom and be held by my daddy and be comforted. I can't because he's not here, never will be. why did he leave me. why didnt he fucking care about me enough to stay. he is so selfish. all he cared about was making his pain end and never considered how much more pain he would cause. i know i shouldnt be mad, but i cant help it. if he loved me so much like everyone says he would have stayed, and toughed it out, atleast for me. he is missing so much and he never even thought about it before he took himself away from us. i hate him for doing this to, now i sound selfish. why wasnt i enough to keep him here? i want this hole in my heart to go away but it never will, and every year i will sit here and hurt and cry and blame myself, and be mad, and nothing can bring my daddy back.