There's an emptiness inside...
When will I stop hurting? I want to be happy other times than when I'm drinking. I was so hurt last night, I didn't even stay at Matt's, my safehaven. I just came home and wanted to be alone.
I swing so fast the past couple of days...part of me wants to be surrounded by people, and the other part just wants to be alone and by myself. Ugh.
The anger is slowly fading. That makes me worried.
Meghan just IMed me. I almost let it slip that she didn't have to fake anything anymore, that I was no longer associated with Ryan Crumpler. But I'm trying to be cordial. Trying. Key word there.
I swing so fast the past couple of days...part of me wants to be surrounded by people, and the other part just wants to be alone and by myself. Ugh.
The anger is slowly fading. That makes me worried.
Meghan just IMed me. I almost let it slip that she didn't have to fake anything anymore, that I was no longer associated with Ryan Crumpler. But I'm trying to be cordial. Trying. Key word there.