Rar!
I'm tired of being lied to. Seriously, folks, can not handle this anymore. I miss trusting someone. I miss knowing that no one was lying to me. Was I being naive? Have people been like this my entire life and I've been oblivious? Or was it just when I met Ryan that assholes magically came into my life?
Ironic, eh?
I know, I should stop reading. I know, it's probably the worst thing for Ryan and me right now. We need to build ourselves back up. I need to not be so accusatory right now. But it's just sitting right there, waiting. So, how many times did they fuck? He obviously held her all night, when he told me that they had their backs to each other. That little fucker. I am beyond upset right now. Hands are shaking again. I'm not a fan. This is supposed to be gone.
Why couldn't he be honest with me? Why did he tell me that he was saying "I love you" to her while he was talking to me? That it was his idea to visit? And that he completely lied to her (poor thing) about everything.
Or is it me? Am I the one to be pitied? Did he lie to me? God, I have so many questions. He acted like he wanted to see her so badly. And he told me "she knew he wasn't in love with her". That's complete and utter BULLSHIT. He was just in love with her as he was with me. You can't just turn those emotions off. I know he must miss her. He couldn't be that good of an actor.
She had no clue we were still fucking. She had no idea that I just magically showed up at the UC because he BEGGED me. Pleaded because he wanted to see me. The exact same fucking way he did with her. She got upset about the rugby game? Did she know that he came home with me and we had sex...twice? Thank God for Derek and Daniel---at least I got mine in because he was doing the exact same thing to me. And I honestly felt horrible about it! He didn't even think twice. He just acted on whatever his dick told him to. And then tried to crawl back to me, and tell me that she meant nothing to him. He did fucking say that away message. That fucking asshole.
But unlike Beth Anne, I have no trouble whatsoever with confrontation. And I will confront him about this. I'm tired of being lied to. So he better come up with something better than "I'm sorry" this time, or it's over. I'm just tired of it. He has approximately, oh, an hour to explain everything to me. And if I find out anything else...anything at all...that he hasn't told me? That he continued to lie to me about when I gave him the BILLIONTH time to come clean about this? He better guard his nuts with a vengence, because they'll be mine for a wall decoration if he doesn't speak up and spit out the Goddam truth.
Ironic, eh?
I know, I should stop reading. I know, it's probably the worst thing for Ryan and me right now. We need to build ourselves back up. I need to not be so accusatory right now. But it's just sitting right there, waiting. So, how many times did they fuck? He obviously held her all night, when he told me that they had their backs to each other. That little fucker. I am beyond upset right now. Hands are shaking again. I'm not a fan. This is supposed to be gone.
Why couldn't he be honest with me? Why did he tell me that he was saying "I love you" to her while he was talking to me? That it was his idea to visit? And that he completely lied to her (poor thing) about everything.
Or is it me? Am I the one to be pitied? Did he lie to me? God, I have so many questions. He acted like he wanted to see her so badly. And he told me "she knew he wasn't in love with her". That's complete and utter BULLSHIT. He was just in love with her as he was with me. You can't just turn those emotions off. I know he must miss her. He couldn't be that good of an actor.
She had no clue we were still fucking. She had no idea that I just magically showed up at the UC because he BEGGED me. Pleaded because he wanted to see me. The exact same fucking way he did with her. She got upset about the rugby game? Did she know that he came home with me and we had sex...twice? Thank God for Derek and Daniel---at least I got mine in because he was doing the exact same thing to me. And I honestly felt horrible about it! He didn't even think twice. He just acted on whatever his dick told him to. And then tried to crawl back to me, and tell me that she meant nothing to him. He did fucking say that away message. That fucking asshole.
But unlike Beth Anne, I have no trouble whatsoever with confrontation. And I will confront him about this. I'm tired of being lied to. So he better come up with something better than "I'm sorry" this time, or it's over. I'm just tired of it. He has approximately, oh, an hour to explain everything to me. And if I find out anything else...anything at all...that he hasn't told me? That he continued to lie to me about when I gave him the BILLIONTH time to come clean about this? He better guard his nuts with a vengence, because they'll be mine for a wall decoration if he doesn't speak up and spit out the Goddam truth.