new years resolutions in a nutshell

[bethyboombaloti]

sometimes i feel like it's about time to basically invent a whole new me. change things about me that have either gotten old and boring or that simply i feel NEED to be changed because it will benefit myself for the better. lately i have been reflecting alot about what i want in my life and what things in my life make my life easier and harder, better or worse. i need my friends in my life. my 2 best friends, to be exact. but i have been starting to realize that they arent my best friends because i do little things for them all the time. they are my best friends because they want to be and exhausting myself with worry about what i am going to say or do to make them happy really hurts the friendship more than helps it grow. and that goes for every kind of relationship, ladies and gentlemen. i'm very easy-going and laid back and pretty "whatever" about most of my relationships with people. if they want to be around me then wonderful and if they dont then thats ok. but these 2 i care ridiculousy about what they are thinking and feeling towards me. and that has it's good and bad points. nevertheless i love them and need them. so back to what i want to change. i want to stop being such a push-over. i need to get some backbone and stop stepping down to people. if i have an opinion i should stick to it (while being open-minded). one thing i will never be is an ignorant person. i hate conflict and confrontation but it happens once in awhile and i want to teach myself how to handle that better. all my new years resolutions in the years past have been filled with things that are unimportant, petty, superficial, and were simply things i was not even going to attempt to achieve. i've wanted to lose weight the past few years. i dont need to lose weight. thats a ridiculous resolution. being healthier on the other hand, or treating my body better is something i can actually shoot for. i have come to realize that overall i like the person that i have come to be and i still have alot more maturing and growing up to do...but i'm a good person. i care about people and if i care about you i would give you the shirt off my back. i like that about myself, i think that quality is few in people nowadays. but just because i am like that doesn't mean i should let people walk all over me. as for the petty things...like my looks, weight, etc. i'm pretty happy with myself. i don't think of myself as drop-dead gorgeous when i look in the mirror but i am pretty pleased with what i see most of the time and as of now i can't really ask for more of myself. if i can think of little things to change about myself physically that i believe will make me look and feel better then i will do it, but for now i'm pretty happy with myself. i'm happy with the friends i have chosen, for the most part i am happy with my relationships i have with my family. a new year for me brings a new beginning, and as of now 2007 is looking pretty good.
P.S. comments would be greatly appreciated =] kthanks.