She's ready to smile and love life

[bethanies_life]

Life is looking up. I thought it was before and then it crashed again, when Kristen left. I'm trying not to jinx it this time. But, I'm smiling, I'm smiling for no reason ad it feels good. To know that I don't need to be in a relationship to make me happy. I still think about her, but it doesn't upset me. I know that she is okay and I know

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[shesgotanaxe]

I'm a sad panda. I wrote you a lenthy comment, and without thinking, I opened another window. Sayoonara, Lengthy Comment. -exhales-

I'm 18 years old September 24th. I'm ready to be full-grown. I feel like I've been full-grown a long time, though... you know? What with everything that's happened, how can I not feel like that? I'm not horrified, though, not like I was. I'm ready to be full-grown. I'm ready to go to school. I'm ready to work. I'm ready to get a place that's mine and only mine. I'm ready to get married. I'm ready to start a family. I'm ready to live my life full-grown.

I start going to school January. I'm happy with that I decided with. I'm going to school for business management, if you want to know. What do you want to go to school for?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Japanese_rock_bands I love Dir en grey. They're my all-time favourite band. Kaoru playing the guitar > Pete Wentz playing the guitar; If you want to talk about Japanese rock, tell me okay? I'd be happy to. I'd probably talk your ears off, though that's okay... right? n_n;

And I love you, too, Dai (your Japanese name; mine's Rini) Dai n great Do you like it?

~Rini

P.S. I'm teaching myself Japanese. I'm really getting it, too. YAY

[bethanies_life]

That made me laugh! Thatnks for making my smile.

I love my Japanese name, thanks. I'll make it my myspace name.. What does it mean though? ^_^

Ahh!! Jrock.. well.. rocks.. ^_^ I have five that I'm really into right now.
1. Asian Kung Fu Generation
2. Dir En Grey.. Ee!!
3. Miyavi
4. HYDE
5. TM Revolution

And I'm kind of starting to love Gackt..

I mean, I feel like I'm mature beyond my years, but actually getting out on my own.. Eek.. I'm scared a tad bit.

I'm glad you are getting Japanese

[shesgotanaxe]

I'm confused... I made you laugh? When? You're welcome I guess. n_n;

Dai n (noun) great

Miyavi is beautiful. I love watching him... Hyde - when you talk, it's "HY-DO". Strange... isn't it? Gackt Gackt Gackt. My ex-girlfriend thinks him godlike. She annoys me really...

Once you start going to school, you'll breathe easy again. It's no big thing, really. -pets-

Thank you. Thank you, thank you. n_n; I'm really excited about teaching myself Japanese. I want to go to Kyoto, Japan after I finish school and get married. Kioshi told me that he's going to go with me. We're even going to go to China. Three hours outside of Chengdu is the Wolong Panda Reserve. He's going with me to that, too. n_n; http://www.travelchinaguide.com/attraction/sichuan/chengdu/wolong.htm

How are you? Are you going to school again? You're what, a senior?

I love you.

[bethanies_life]

I just read it as if you were excited.. Maybe it was just all in how I read it that made me laugh.. ^_^

Ee! Love it! Now.. what does Etsu mean? Like, what can I put after it or before it to make it my mysapce name? Oh, and I am pretty much the greatest.. ^_^

Miyavi has some stuff going for him.. like.. in the looks department.. Some of them are wierd but he can be cute.. at least.. I think it's a he.. ^_^ He is killer on guitar as well.

School is wonderful, yes I'm a senior and.. I'm outrageously amazing right now.. ^_^

[shesgotanaxe]

Etsu n delight; Dai Etsu? We can be sisters, if you want to be. n_n;

You're right... Miyavi's got tattoos everywhere, and they're arty. That's why I love them, that's why I love him. n_n; And he's a stellar guitar player.

What do you want to go to school for?

[bethanies_life]

Sure.. ^_^ I just need to know to know what to put.. I don't want to look stupid.. then it would be your fault.. ^_^ Kiiiiidding.

Yeah.. him and HYDE.. Wooo.

I want to be a cardiovascualr nurse.. But once I graduate I want to join the Red Cross and go to third world countries.

[shesgotanaxe]

Aww, Dai... That's great. n_n;

[bethanies_life]

Hah..

Well, I thought life was looking good..not so much. E-mail me on Myspace and I'll tell you about it.

[shesgotanaxe]

I don't really use MySpace these days... u_u; I'm sorry. You can email me, though; cirenedrennen@yahoo.com

-hugs and hugs and hugs- I love you.