She's ready to smile and love life
Life is looking up. I thought it was before and then it crashed again, when Kristen left. I'm trying not to jinx it this time. But, I'm smiling, I'm smiling for no reason ad it feels good. To know that I don't need to be in a relationship to make me happy. I still think about her, but it doesn't upset me. I know that she is okay and I know that she is happy and that's all that matters.
I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to start living my teenage years, even though they are almost over. I've always lived for others, to help others, and I still want to do that, but I'm going to start thinking about me sometimes too. I realize that I don't have to make other people happy to be happy myself. Yes, it helps but I can be happy by just being around my friends.
I filled out my first college application today. Ee!! I'm so scared. Scared to grow up and move away from home. I think I'm ready though. My parents have given me the tools I need to grow up, I just have to put them to use.
I recently got into Jrock.. Like very recently. I can't stop listening to it though. Oh well. The beats pretty much rock, even though you can't understand what the people are saying.
Oh, and. I love you, Chelsea.. ^_^
I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to start living my teenage years, even though they are almost over. I've always lived for others, to help others, and I still want to do that, but I'm going to start thinking about me sometimes too. I realize that I don't have to make other people happy to be happy myself. Yes, it helps but I can be happy by just being around my friends.
I filled out my first college application today. Ee!! I'm so scared. Scared to grow up and move away from home. I think I'm ready though. My parents have given me the tools I need to grow up, I just have to put them to use.
I recently got into Jrock.. Like very recently. I can't stop listening to it though. Oh well. The beats pretty much rock, even though you can't understand what the people are saying.
Oh, and. I love you, Chelsea.. ^_^