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I'm feeling stressed. It's that combination kind where you're just busy with a lot of little things at work and at home, and then future worries creep in to say that you will never find the apartment you want for the price you want in the place you want at the time you want.
Worried my heat and hot water will be turned off. Worried we'll owe a lot of money. Worried for no real reason about sorting through all the cable and internet crap that i wasn't supposed to be in charge of. Worried about money for my next security deposit and last month's rent that i'm sure i'll need. Worried about finding flights and missing out on cheaper ones.
It's all unimportant, really, for me to be worrying about these things. I am fully aware that i'm feeling nervous for no reason. But then, i don't even feel that nervous about these things, exactly. I just managed to work myself into a light-headed state of anxiety over the course of the day. And really, i'm wondering whether this isn't a manifestation of the cold i've been trying to fight off...?
Did i tell you i had the stomach flu last week? It fooled me and attacked in the dead of night, when i thought i was supposed to be sleeping. Then, it made me stay home from work for two days and feel miserable the whole time. I went in on Friday, and i'm still glad i did, although i probably shouldn't have because i was not all that strong, not having eaten (or even had much to drink) for 2 days. Plus, it was a gross day.
Now, i don't feel that it's fair i should have to have the cold my roommates have been passing around. Wasn't that my sickness for the month? What is this headache and light/heavy-headed feeling. And this anxious pit in my stomach? And the terrible sinus pressure is zoning me out.
Worried my heat and hot water will be turned off. Worried we'll owe a lot of money. Worried for no real reason about sorting through all the cable and internet crap that i wasn't supposed to be in charge of. Worried about money for my next security deposit and last month's rent that i'm sure i'll need. Worried about finding flights and missing out on cheaper ones.
It's all unimportant, really, for me to be worrying about these things. I am fully aware that i'm feeling nervous for no reason. But then, i don't even feel that nervous about these things, exactly. I just managed to work myself into a light-headed state of anxiety over the course of the day. And really, i'm wondering whether this isn't a manifestation of the cold i've been trying to fight off...?
Did i tell you i had the stomach flu last week? It fooled me and attacked in the dead of night, when i thought i was supposed to be sleeping. Then, it made me stay home from work for two days and feel miserable the whole time. I went in on Friday, and i'm still glad i did, although i probably shouldn't have because i was not all that strong, not having eaten (or even had much to drink) for 2 days. Plus, it was a gross day.
Now, i don't feel that it's fair i should have to have the cold my roommates have been passing around. Wasn't that my sickness for the month? What is this headache and light/heavy-headed feeling. And this anxious pit in my stomach? And the terrible sinus pressure is zoning me out.