Sometimes I wonder if I have a disease or something. I've always wondered to myself, why did I turn to a self-blaming scaredy cat? When
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You probably can't do it becaue your heart doesn't want to. It's not as easy as everyone says when it comes to "It's simple, cry when you feel like crying, smile, when you feel like smiling." People tend to say that although they know it's not as easy as it sounds. However, I think it was time for you to finally snap. I don't know how long this is going on already, but there is a certain time where you just can't hold it in, and it's good like that. It's not embarrassing, too. You shouldn't be embarrassed.
I know how it feels to take the blame for everyone althoguh you're not at fault just because you don't want others to get hurt. Because you know how it feels like. However, my best friend always tells me to sometimes think more about myself than about everyone else, like I usually do. It's not easy to realize though, but if you try, you can do it. It's something you learn about yourself. Do you really want to continue like this? Do you really want to feel embarrassed? Do you really care about what people who scream at you think when you want to scream back or actually do scream back? I think you shouldn't. They don't care, so try not to care as well. I know it's easier said than done, and I still have many hardships with it, too, but sometimes you really need to think like that not to get yourself down.
Also, hurting yourself.... don't do that. It's not worth it and will only bring pain to you and to your friends as well. People start to worry and honestly, if you would hurt yourself and tell me the reason you wrote above, I'd probaby punch you haha. Because it's really not worth it.
By the way, there's nothing wrong in your head. It's not a desease or something, it's rather a huge bad habbit to get rid of ;)
Haha no problem. It really is hard to change. I myself m still changing it too, since I'm way too cautious around people and tend to blame myself for their mistakes. However, I think I'm getting better at it... probably. I'm not really sure. What I know is that I start to not care about their opinions. Which is really hard to learn too but also a good thing sometimes ^^
Yeah, you should figure out another way ^^ I don't know about your family but won't trying to talk to them do any good? Like "You know, I'm in a really bad mood because you do this without me offending you. People don't do that." or something like this?
It's not as easy as everyone says when it comes to "It's simple, cry when you feel like crying, smile, when you feel like smiling." People tend to say that although they know it's not as easy as it sounds.
However, I think it was time for you to finally snap. I don't know how long this is going on already, but there is a certain time where you just can't hold it in, and it's good like that. It's not embarrassing, too. You shouldn't be embarrassed.
I know how it feels to take the blame for everyone althoguh you're not at fault just because you don't want others to get hurt. Because you know how it feels like. However, my best friend always tells me to sometimes think more about myself than about everyone else, like I usually do. It's not easy to realize though, but if you try, you can do it. It's something you learn about yourself. Do you really want to continue like this? Do you really want to feel embarrassed? Do you really care about what people who scream at you think when you want to scream back or actually do scream back?
I think you shouldn't. They don't care, so try not to care as well. I know it's easier said than done, and I still have many hardships with it, too, but sometimes you really need to think like that not to get yourself down.
Also, hurting yourself.... don't do that. It's not worth it and will only bring pain to you and to your friends as well. People start to worry and honestly, if you would hurt yourself and tell me the reason you wrote above, I'd probaby punch you haha. Because it's really not worth it.
By the way, there's nothing wrong in your head. It's not a desease or something, it's rather a huge bad habbit to get rid of ;)
*cuddles*
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That's why I don't hurt myself even if I do have those thoughts - cos I think it's a bit of a waste. I still have a lot to do in this life!
Yup, that's gonna be a really hard habit to break. But I will keep trying >.<
Really, thanks for the advice...
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Yeah, you should figure out another way ^^ I don't know about your family but won't trying to talk to them do any good? Like "You know, I'm in a really bad mood because you do this without me offending you. People don't do that." or something like this?
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