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Salaaaaaaaaaam
My husband is going back to school today. It's a bummer because I got used to him being home last week with him missing days to make up work. Inshallah today we have to go to fedex to mail his mum some packages.
Yesterday I went to sunset place with my sister and little one. I had a lot of fun and didn't realize how much I missed bath and body works.. WOOt. She got me some nice things which I didn't expect but I think that might be her way of fulfilling her big sister role since our lives are more independent now. It would be pretty sweet if there were a cheap place to buy great abayas but everyone here sells them so expensive because it's all imported. I was going to buy one with some birthday money but now I've decided to just wait to go to Kuwait inshallah to buy some. I finally got my new niqab in from sunnah style. I must say it took a while to get it but alhamdudilah I finally have it! It's so much better than my other one. It's thinner, thus making it easier to cool down when I get too hot. Alhamdudilah.. May Allah guide us all onto a straight path, Ameen.
Last night after isha my husband told me the men in the masjid said I was to read at the next taleem inshallah. WHAAAT. I'm pretty nervous and scared to. I'm a shy person in reality and I usually just sit and listen. Now I have to SPEAK!? Big step.I kind of saw it coming but not this soooon. I've missed two so far including the last one. I'm pretty nervous, yeah. I pray that Allah makes it easy for me to do inshallah.
Last tuesday I was on my way to Khadijas house to pick her up for taleem and some guys came from behind me and got infront of me, they had their window open and were glaring at me with such a mean look and when we were stopped at a red light they were pointing at me as to let me know I'M LOOKING AT YOU, MRS. TERRORIST.
It's so sad that some people see me this way because I wear niqab, little do they know I'm cuban american. When I got to khadijas house I broke down crying because the look in their eyes was different from every other time. I'm used to people staring incredibly rudely and people sticking their head out of their window to make a double take but this was different. It made me question my safety but I already told my husband, God forbid if someone were to threaten me then I would stop wearing it till we move to Kuwait inshallah. He says if that were to happen inshallah we'd move immediately... I just want to please my creator, why can't ignorant people leave me be? It's supposedly a free country and that entails women and men being allowed to practically go out in their underwear or in the nude. Why can't it entail a women covering her face or her head? Why can't it entail a man wearing a kufi or a turban? It's convenient for them to exercise their right when it comes to things they accept and enjoy but it's not convenient for them to just let us live our lives. I keep to myself, I don't go far by myself, I do nor wish any harm on anyone. I have a right to be here and to exercise my rights to this so called freedom yet I'm treated as a prisoner and now I can't go out by myself unless to taleem or maybe to Khadija's. Inshallah I pray Allah keeps us all safe and in good health, and softens this hardship for all of us, Ameen.
My husband is going back to school today. It's a bummer because I got used to him being home last week with him missing days to make up work. Inshallah today we have to go to fedex to mail his mum some packages.
Yesterday I went to sunset place with my sister and little one. I had a lot of fun and didn't realize how much I missed bath and body works.. WOOt. She got me some nice things which I didn't expect but I think that might be her way of fulfilling her big sister role since our lives are more independent now. It would be pretty sweet if there were a cheap place to buy great abayas but everyone here sells them so expensive because it's all imported. I was going to buy one with some birthday money but now I've decided to just wait to go to Kuwait inshallah to buy some. I finally got my new niqab in from sunnah style. I must say it took a while to get it but alhamdudilah I finally have it! It's so much better than my other one. It's thinner, thus making it easier to cool down when I get too hot. Alhamdudilah.. May Allah guide us all onto a straight path, Ameen.
Last night after isha my husband told me the men in the masjid said I was to read at the next taleem inshallah. WHAAAT. I'm pretty nervous and scared to. I'm a shy person in reality and I usually just sit and listen. Now I have to SPEAK!? Big step.I kind of saw it coming but not this soooon. I've missed two so far including the last one. I'm pretty nervous, yeah. I pray that Allah makes it easy for me to do inshallah.
Last tuesday I was on my way to Khadijas house to pick her up for taleem and some guys came from behind me and got infront of me, they had their window open and were glaring at me with such a mean look and when we were stopped at a red light they were pointing at me as to let me know I'M LOOKING AT YOU, MRS. TERRORIST.
It's so sad that some people see me this way because I wear niqab, little do they know I'm cuban american. When I got to khadijas house I broke down crying because the look in their eyes was different from every other time. I'm used to people staring incredibly rudely and people sticking their head out of their window to make a double take but this was different. It made me question my safety but I already told my husband, God forbid if someone were to threaten me then I would stop wearing it till we move to Kuwait inshallah. He says if that were to happen inshallah we'd move immediately... I just want to please my creator, why can't ignorant people leave me be? It's supposedly a free country and that entails women and men being allowed to practically go out in their underwear or in the nude. Why can't it entail a women covering her face or her head? Why can't it entail a man wearing a kufi or a turban? It's convenient for them to exercise their right when it comes to things they accept and enjoy but it's not convenient for them to just let us live our lives. I keep to myself, I don't go far by myself, I do nor wish any harm on anyone. I have a right to be here and to exercise my rights to this so called freedom yet I'm treated as a prisoner and now I can't go out by myself unless to taleem or maybe to Khadija's. Inshallah I pray Allah keeps us all safe and in good health, and softens this hardship for all of us, Ameen.