Up-date to the most part
I have been in Floirda for the last 2 weeks, and to be honest i cant wait to come back home but then again i dont wanna be back home because then i gata deal with somet things that i left there when i left to here.
*sighs* i came down here to bowl, and i finished 86th outta 1487 people.. Thank god i guess, but i didnt make the cut i had to be in the top 65 people. So i dont really see why i came down here other then the fact that i needed to get away.. And in the process of getting away i ended up losing a guy i was really into, he called me like the 4th day from leaving home and saying that he Just wanted to be friends.. Fun right?... Blah.. Fuck it.
When i do get home i will be bowling again but before that im taking one long ass road trip in the car around MN.. for a day.. That will be nice.. just to take my car out and not give a shit anymore..
I ended up not seeing my ex Nick down here but he was nice enough to help me bowl when i txted him to help me. And with him i guess he cant let go of something.. i met his ex down here to and her and i bullshited about a lot of things while bowling since neither of us did so well. But i will be talking to her more, and she had happen what he did to me, but in a nicer way.. I got the hard way because she says that he still has feelings for me... *shrugs* i dont believe it. I mean hes in Alaska and im here, he has a point, it would never work. Im trying to make it happen since i seem to get fucked over in every other way right now...
This trip has made some friendships and ruined others.. Like the people i came down with have been fighting and making me pissed. I dont know anymore. Its like you make something and something falls apart.. just like with me and nick we will be fine one time and the next we are yelling. someone so sweet i let go of because of a fucking mistake of telling him to go home instead of move in with me.. *SLAMS HEAD*
Theres a ton buggin me but whats new right? Who knows. It doesnt matter anymore now does it... Not really.. I have my 2 best friends in the world waiting for me to come home and chill. SO i do have something to look forward to i guess. *looks around* Aj has had my back to even though hes in texas... *sighs*
My life in general is FUCKED UP!!!.. and people know why.... if u relly think about it you will know what started it... *sighs*
*sighs* i came down here to bowl, and i finished 86th outta 1487 people.. Thank god i guess, but i didnt make the cut i had to be in the top 65 people. So i dont really see why i came down here other then the fact that i needed to get away.. And in the process of getting away i ended up losing a guy i was really into, he called me like the 4th day from leaving home and saying that he Just wanted to be friends.. Fun right?... Blah.. Fuck it.
When i do get home i will be bowling again but before that im taking one long ass road trip in the car around MN.. for a day.. That will be nice.. just to take my car out and not give a shit anymore..
I ended up not seeing my ex Nick down here but he was nice enough to help me bowl when i txted him to help me. And with him i guess he cant let go of something.. i met his ex down here to and her and i bullshited about a lot of things while bowling since neither of us did so well. But i will be talking to her more, and she had happen what he did to me, but in a nicer way.. I got the hard way because she says that he still has feelings for me... *shrugs* i dont believe it. I mean hes in Alaska and im here, he has a point, it would never work. Im trying to make it happen since i seem to get fucked over in every other way right now...
This trip has made some friendships and ruined others.. Like the people i came down with have been fighting and making me pissed. I dont know anymore. Its like you make something and something falls apart.. just like with me and nick we will be fine one time and the next we are yelling. someone so sweet i let go of because of a fucking mistake of telling him to go home instead of move in with me.. *SLAMS HEAD*
Theres a ton buggin me but whats new right? Who knows. It doesnt matter anymore now does it... Not really.. I have my 2 best friends in the world waiting for me to come home and chill. SO i do have something to look forward to i guess. *looks around* Aj has had my back to even though hes in texas... *sighs*
My life in general is FUCKED UP!!!.. and people know why.... if u relly think about it you will know what started it... *sighs*