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i dont think anyone writes in their journals anymore.. but anyways i just figured i'd check out live journal since i havent been on it for a very long time.. i wonder how everyones doing. i havent seen anyone in a long time. i think nawal pretty much gave up on me because i havent seen or heard from her in a long time. i guess i dont blame her.. she thinks i choose mychael over her.. but i dont im just in a tough situation. i know she dont like myke. i kinda understand why but then mychael wanted to make plans with maria, and her and me.. he was going to take us all out to dinner but that didnt exactly work because nawal had to pick her bro up and take him to work or let him use her car i dont know something like that. anyways it never happened. then she said she wanted to make plans the next week but i dont know what happend.. im not gonna try to force her to stay friends with me if she doesnt want to but i do want to still stay friends with her.. its just that its kinda hard to juggle a boyfriend, school, work, friends and everything else that goes on including my mom wanting me to go get car insurance and health insurance on my own which sucks ass by the way cuz i dont have money for that shit.. oh well i moved out and my pockets are always empty i hate it!! i need new clothes, gas and shit and cant get it. fuck it i think im going to start making my own clothes.. lol aint nothing been up with me i pretty much stay home all the time now cuz i dont have gas to go anywhere but its tight cuz i walk around and explore the appartment complex when i get bored. lol boring life huh? oh well i;ll write again another day but i dont really get online to much cuz i dont have internet on my laptop yet. itll come someday