idon'tneedtoexplainmyself, just show you that it's possible to hurt and be happy

[bent_on_avlon]

depite all my depression, friend drama, school failures, hospitalizations, diagnosis, breakdowns, fights, alcoholism, brushes with the law, self-doubt, blind love, and more or less losing all "important" people within the last 6-8 months, i am so happy with my life right nowmy friend stephanie helped put everything into perspective for me last

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[lilblubunny1569]

amen to that audrey! ive been going through a similar up and down (s) in my life in the past 2 years, especially since last january when billy and i seperated..we were living together (just me and him, pretty much married just not legally) and then all of the sudden, 4 days after an amazing New Years that we spent together (and christmas too) he breaks everything off, gets all my stuff out of our apartment, took everything back to my moms house and got up and left to another city..out of NOTHING...i was by all means devestated to the max...lets just say that from january til about april victoria was hell, and hell was all around her. i started using again, drinking alot more, pretty much put a big FUCK YOU on my forehead and didnt care about the world. and then one day..a few days after my birthday when i was out surfing with my friend Ceará and we started having one of our deep conversations, basically he helped knock some sense into my head. i basically just needed to hear it from someone else, it helped...im doing great...well i am getting there. it still hurts on the inside but atleast i know that i walked away from that relationship and mini-life with ALOT of good memories, and ALOT of good experiences that will continue with me the rest of my life....

i kinda tripped off in the middle of this, basically, life throws us so many curveballs, we are given the choice to walk down so many paths, sometimes they will be amazing and breathtaking and some will be the ones that we cry the whole way, that gives us a pain in our heart BUT in the end, it will always get better..shit may happen...we may fall on our faces and break our nose but we have to just brush ourselves off, put our head up high and keep going. cuz if you just give up...you wont get anywhere and you will continue in that depression, in that negativity...

i have a feeling you will get the message in here...i hate writing in english nowadays, i prefer portuguese alot more. =] i know i havent talked to you in eons but i havent forgotten you!! haha, remember that day we skipped and went and smoked pot with that Michael tall guy...ahh good times with you girlie.

funny..when we are in High School, it seems like its the most important thing in the WORLD, and then when you leave and you start over again from nothing you realize that it was all just a phase in our lives... am i right??

good luck to you audrey!! i know you will go far in life!!! take care of yourself!!! and btw, your pics on facebook are rockin!! you look great and most important of all, you look HAPPY. xoxo tchau

[bent_on_avlon]

aw babe, i really appreciate what you said. the end of high school was definitely a wake up call. and since then, everything has become horribly unpredictable, but i've learned to roll with the punches...and seems like you have too :) i'm glad we're happy =)

take care boo,

Audrey