never thought i'd post this
well, yes well,
bad times, sam broke up with me, the reasons are numerous and understanding, and i can't say i didn't know we were on the rocks but i honestly didn't know it was that bad, i thought we could work through it, 72 years and all that.
i took it well, but then being around him stuck on the car etc i started to take it worse till there was wails, scalpels, drinks, pills, police officers and hospital. stupid stupid dans went off the deep end.
family came up and whisked me to london and here i am.
out of all this mess there is some good. i've known for a little while i wasnj't the girl i used to be any more. and although i wanted to get her back i wasnt taking the steps. i haqte to admit it but i was comfortable where i was, at home cooking and cleaning and not socialising. it was safe. now i'm trying to get her back.
how am i gonna do that?
fiorst move is get my confidence back, to do that i'm learning to drive again. had my first lesson today and am enjoying.
gonna go horseriding too, gotta get johdpers(sp?) tomorrow and get some lessons booked.
i liked the yoga i did at the priory so gonna try that too.
lastly gotta let that goddess back in, i've been too closed, gonna get my arse out doors and open myself up some more.
i;m doing these things in london at the mo. once i pass my test, or maybe before if i;m feeling good enough i;m gonna go up to manchester. then the second stage comes in
get a job (i'll also move my new/old hobbies up to manc). Once i have a job and income i will look at either moving out to a place in manc on my own or staying in the house with sam (depends how comfortable everything is)
then? well lets see what life holds.
I'm not fool enough to think it will all be easy but i'm gonna try. i have to try, cos i miss the girl i was.
well thats all from me.
bad times, sam broke up with me, the reasons are numerous and understanding, and i can't say i didn't know we were on the rocks but i honestly didn't know it was that bad, i thought we could work through it, 72 years and all that.
i took it well, but then being around him stuck on the car etc i started to take it worse till there was wails, scalpels, drinks, pills, police officers and hospital. stupid stupid dans went off the deep end.
family came up and whisked me to london and here i am.
out of all this mess there is some good. i've known for a little while i wasnj't the girl i used to be any more. and although i wanted to get her back i wasnt taking the steps. i haqte to admit it but i was comfortable where i was, at home cooking and cleaning and not socialising. it was safe. now i'm trying to get her back.
how am i gonna do that?
fiorst move is get my confidence back, to do that i'm learning to drive again. had my first lesson today and am enjoying.
gonna go horseriding too, gotta get johdpers(sp?) tomorrow and get some lessons booked.
i liked the yoga i did at the priory so gonna try that too.
lastly gotta let that goddess back in, i've been too closed, gonna get my arse out doors and open myself up some more.
i;m doing these things in london at the mo. once i pass my test, or maybe before if i;m feeling good enough i;m gonna go up to manchester. then the second stage comes in
get a job (i'll also move my new/old hobbies up to manc). Once i have a job and income i will look at either moving out to a place in manc on my own or staying in the house with sam (depends how comfortable everything is)
then? well lets see what life holds.
I'm not fool enough to think it will all be easy but i'm gonna try. i have to try, cos i miss the girl i was.
well thats all from me.