Well hello there
How are you all? Well if you post more often than me I should already know.
I really really meant to post before this but it serems once a month is as frequent as I get.
So what has happened?
Job is still going good. They are opening up new possibiliuties for me.
Periods are getting worse and worse. I don;t know how much more PMS I can take, and as such I gathered my courage to brave the medicine lottery and try and see if I could go on a pill I could take continuously. However when my Dr heard the reactions I had to the previous two pills he said no I am to stay on this one. He said I could try this one two months in a row (no longer) but if I bleed I have to go back to normal. Shitting myself as to what will happen, it has to work or else - damn I am seriously scared about this one. Only my depression makes me this scared and grr. Hope and pray for me guys.
I've got a drs appt this weds with the psych dr and will see what he says. Once Ihave that sorted might try and get to the dentist and opticions as god knows that is needed.
I have stopped therapy. My Bupa money ran out and I felt relaxing on the firdays would be more beneficial. The relationship with her was never very good anyway. I thoughht she was too judgemental and talked way too much psyco babble. Part of me wanted to say hey i do not act out my sitruations on every frigging human being in my life (her trying to sdayi saw her and my psych dr as a mother who was too busy for me and a father who didn't care) urgh her head was too far up her arse to listen to me.
*breathes* Anyway despite the odd time I thought i'd like to tell her something and see what she would have thought I haven't missed it at all. And I've really enjoyed the free time.
I went to Tallinn in Estonia for a long weekend to see Keli. The old town is quite beautiful. Theres alot fo culture there. OUt of the old town the impact of Estonia's history seemed all too apparent to me, especially the Russian occupation, it left me rather uncomfortable. The hotel room was ok and had HUUUUUGGGGGEEEEE bed, which was fortunate as Kel and Lis were having accomodation problems and came to stay with us. We fit four of us in a bed only a teeny bit squished.
We ate at Old Hansa the first night (meadivl), Shuchi the second, African Kitchen the third (and had a Sauna *squees*) and then Barac (was that right?) (Azabijanii) the fourth. Was really nice absolutly loved the Arabic food, have to do that again soon. We spent they days doing touristy things, me and sam are getting better and better at that. Can't wait to go on another trip, just wish we could not fly.
I brought yet more stuff up from London am slowly rooting through it and having a clearout. Very theraputic I think. But it does mean my hallway has lots of stuff in it.
But I have been cleaning and organising thanks to the sun, He brings out the best in me.
I;m starting to feel good about things. In control of them again. LOL i just realised dammitit hit again. That jan-march slump. End of Dec post I was feeling great. then it went down hill and wow i'm starting to feel good again. Like clockwork and I didn't even notice till just now. Maybe the superr bad periods are linked to that too. Maybe I can survive the next period after all? We'll still try the takling two packets.
Well I;m gonna go have a bath and then eat and do laundry. I think that was all I wanted to say. Maybe add in
wahey Furuba 16 out soon!
*squee bounce woopee* gravitation is so cool cant wait to read the managa *THUD* Yuki Eri is just oh my gods *THUD* and wowie wowie yaoi *bounce*
*treble bounce* Hellsing 8 has a release date!!!!
AND OMFG! how did i forget how did it frelling slip my mind *bounces round room and returns to keyboard*
I'M GOING TO BURBANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
GIGI
BEN
WAYNE
AND OH I THINK I;M GONNA HAVE A CORONAY (sp?) ROCKNE S O'BANNON THE GOD THAT HE IS. I will be able to bow at his feet *THUD THUD THUD THUD*
ok i will now try and calm down enough to have a bath but oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo *squee bounce bounce*
Dans