blurgh

[bent_brokenrose]

I'm doing badly, I;m falling to pieces. I feel like i dont want to anything, just zoned and want to sleep, sleep and cry. Bad thoughts forming and plauging my mind. So confused about everything, dont want to think about exams, dont want to think about moving dont want to think about jobs. i;m useless like this, i cant do my work which needs doing, i cant organise things which needs doing, i cant even waste time and enjoy myself, i just sit and cry and sleep. i hate this, i hate feeling this way, i hate that i cant seem to cope with the simple things in life. i dont wanna get all negative, i dont wanna rant too much and worry people but i just need to get some stuff out, so much buzzing in head and i just want it all to go away, really just cant deal with all my thoughts. I'm safe in manchester at least, no scalpels, sooo not enough pills, no sea front to throw myself off. have my kit somewhere in the stuff that has been moved but that is harder to use, and ive never been good with kitchen knives. so yea i;m safe. and i guess thats something i should be happy about. so why arent i?

Dans