updating
I guess I should really update.
I am in manchester now, have been for a week. Going better than I thought it would.
- Bar my pc I have been able to fit everything in.
- It's been easier to keep the place clean than I expected, though I am getting tired of being the one to do everything.
- Smoking hasn't bothered me as much as I thought it would, maybe I am just in the kitchen less
- I seem to be making friends and making myself at home ok
Haven't done some of the things I was hoping for
- Dentist appt
- Arranging psycotherapy for June
- Driving
- Writing to Lis and Kel
Waiting on mum for the BUPA details for the psycotherapy, waiting on having enough time with sam on a good day to go driving, my own fault about the dentist, maybe I shold call them now :-s. Don't wanna spend time writing till I have done at least one assignment, but between cleaning and depression the work just hasnt been moving.
Have 4 assignments for uni to do, 1 assignment for forensics group and 3 exams to revise for. 1/3 of way through first uni assignment and already lost 1 week of three :-s
Have been looking at houses, some have started coming on the market that are avaliable in June, wanna stay in the Levenshulme area or near by. But gotta stop looking for places and focus on work.
Depression is rearing ugly head, not helped by bad dreams, if i wake up from a bad dream the emotions linger and leave me messed for morning. This morning woke up as I was carrying Acacia from the sea and I was screaming. We hadnt noticed her, Nat and Trinity were missing, we were blowing the whistle, the signal to round everyone up and her body washed ashore. I saw her foot first and can't get that out of mind. It's left me in a very sad, confused, boardering on panicy mood.
Well I guess I should leave it here before i go off on a depressive rant.
Dans
I am in manchester now, have been for a week. Going better than I thought it would.
- Bar my pc I have been able to fit everything in.
- It's been easier to keep the place clean than I expected, though I am getting tired of being the one to do everything.
- Smoking hasn't bothered me as much as I thought it would, maybe I am just in the kitchen less
- I seem to be making friends and making myself at home ok
Haven't done some of the things I was hoping for
- Dentist appt
- Arranging psycotherapy for June
- Driving
- Writing to Lis and Kel
Waiting on mum for the BUPA details for the psycotherapy, waiting on having enough time with sam on a good day to go driving, my own fault about the dentist, maybe I shold call them now :-s. Don't wanna spend time writing till I have done at least one assignment, but between cleaning and depression the work just hasnt been moving.
Have 4 assignments for uni to do, 1 assignment for forensics group and 3 exams to revise for. 1/3 of way through first uni assignment and already lost 1 week of three :-s
Have been looking at houses, some have started coming on the market that are avaliable in June, wanna stay in the Levenshulme area or near by. But gotta stop looking for places and focus on work.
Depression is rearing ugly head, not helped by bad dreams, if i wake up from a bad dream the emotions linger and leave me messed for morning. This morning woke up as I was carrying Acacia from the sea and I was screaming. We hadnt noticed her, Nat and Trinity were missing, we were blowing the whistle, the signal to round everyone up and her body washed ashore. I saw her foot first and can't get that out of mind. It's left me in a very sad, confused, boardering on panicy mood.
Well I guess I should leave it here before i go off on a depressive rant.
Dans