so im a fuck up
yep this blows. this whole weekend has sucked ass. also concidering that all of my best friends hate me. I know I fucked up our show. I know I didnt show up and i feel terrible. This is not a pitty thing im just trying to tell you guys that im really fucking sorry. And I know sorry isnt good enough because i seem to fuck up an awful lot. I dont want shit to be wierd between us even though it obviosly will be. I know none of you believe me about what happened thats why i suggest asking like matt or erica or something because maybe ull beleive them more then me. It feels awful not being able to tell ur friends something and have them believe it. They say fix it, and i have been and i havnt lied to anyone in a while or ditched anyone but now they think that im lying about this. and im REALLY NOT THIS TIME i swear on everythign in my life. and i just want my friends back. and i feel like shit. you guys mean alot to me, but i dunno if u feel taht way about me. tell me anything i can do to get u guys back as my friends. i swear none of this was on purpose. i want to make it up or something i dunno. just my friends dont like me anymore and without them i really dont have motivation or a reason to go do anything. my friends =my will to have fun. no friends =no good times or enjoyment out of anything. I FUCKED UP IM SORRY.